Did anyone else feel happiness at the beginning of the pandemic but feel a ton of dread now that everything is reopening?
I’m sure i can’t be the only one feeling this way. I felt a great sense of calm in the early months of the pandemic, from March - August or so was probably the happiest months of my life. No work most days and light working from home 2-3 days a week. Rest of time was spent catching up on tv shows and movies, books, catching up on sleep, reading the Bible and watching church, exploring my faith, started art therapy, and did a lot of my hobbies like painting and making art and decorating. I’m supposed to go back to work Friday - still from home as far as I know - but seriously dreading it and just missing everything about the early pandemic times - i don’t want to minimize how awful it was, but, i can’t stop thinking about how amazing it was to not have cars on the road and how clean the air was, and the sense that we were “all in this together”. Now it seems like most of the virtual options for health care and classes and socialization art therapy groups etc are moving back to in person and this lovely online world of pandemic bliss that I’ve created for myself is slowly dying as we “return to the new normal.” I’m really dreading it and if I had a choice I would definitely go back and relive this last year again, because I want more time and more freedom to pursue my hobbies without the daily grind of work and all the things that come along with that, and new social expectations and events that I’ve gotten used to not going to are going to be popping up again. Anyone else feeling this way? And if you are, is it compounded by feeling guilty for actually admitting to enjoying the last year at home when it was the worst year of their lives for so many others? I know I’m lucky, and blessed, but doest change how depressed and anxious i am and how much i don’t want to go back to the hustle and bustle of the before times. #Depression #Anxiety #PTSD #Insomnia #ChronicFatigue
