Elisabeth

@thoughtfighter
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I Don’t Know How

Everyone says you have to learn to love yourself first before you can love other people
But I don’t know how
Society teaches us our ABC’s
But they don’t teach us what it means to say “I love me”
I can say “I love you” to my reflection a million times over
But I don’t I truly believe it
What does it even mean to love oneself?
How do I achieve it?
These questions plague my mind out of desperation
I want to love me
But I don’t know how….
#MightyPoets #MightyQuestions #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #PersonalityDisorders #MentalHealth

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I Don’t Know

I don’t know who I am
I kinda do
But then I don’t
I think I do
But I’m not certain
Am I who I believe to be in my mind
Or am I who my actions reflect
I’ve stood at this crossroad for a decade now
Going through periods where I walk in my identity with confidence
Only to later sit in a place of total confusion
Will there ever come a day where I figure everything out
Where I can stand firm in confidence even in the midst of the chaos
I don’t know who I am, I kinda do but then I don’t
I think I do, but I’m not certain
#MightyPoets #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #DistractMe #MentalHealth #Emotions #Depression #BPD #IntrusiveThoughts #MoodDisorders

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The image of you

It’s crazy how your image changed
Your face used to make the world melt away
Your smile used to ruffle the butterflies in my belly
And your eyes made me feel seen dispelling every ounce of invisibility
Your presence had become my safe place where I could unload the pressures of life, the pressures of being me
It’s crazy how your image changed
How could a place of some much joy and laughter become such a devastating place of pain
It’s crazy how your image changed
Now when I look at you all I see is betrayal, all I feel is hurt, and all my heart does is break
It’s crazy how your image changed
I no longer feel seen, my invisibility cloak has returned
It’s crazy how your image changed
I no longer feel loved, I feel smaller than I did before I met you
It’s crazy how your image changed
I used to long to hear your voice now every word you say makes me feel uneasy and confused
It’s crazy how your image changed
But yet and still I love you #MightyPoets #Broken #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Relationships #Depression #BPDDiagnosis #Sadness #Pain #MentalHealth

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A thin line between life and death

There is this a thin line between wanting to be alive yet wanting to die.
Frequently I find myself on both sides of the line
With elements of my life that are beautiful beyond compare, blessings, accolades, love, and support
With elements of my life where not even the smallest glimmer of light will shine, pain, failure, inadequacy, neglect
Ive mastered the art of tiptoeing the line, escaping death but never truly alive
But now it’s time for me to decide, which side of the line will I reside

#Depression #MightyPoets #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide #Grief #Pain

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Rejection

Today I experienced rejection
Normally when I experience rejection it tickles the wounds of my abandonment
Thoughts of death come flooding just as the words of rejection roll off the individual’s tongue
The world becomes bleak and dark
And every once of joy escapes me
The negative thoughts blare in my head
And my negative core beliefs begin to sing
You’re inadequate
No one will ever love you
You are damaged beyond repair
The thoughts consume my mind
Till I begin to isolate and slowly fade away
the thoughts consume my mind till I beg the Lord to die
But today....today I was rejected just the same
Today I called a friend who held me in my pain
Today I affirmed myself for every lie that penetrated my mind
Today I fell on my face and worshipped
Today I cried, but today I survived rejection for the very first time
#MightyPoets #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Rejection #DependentPersonalityDisorder #Codependency #Depression #MentalHealth

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Healing from your past

Healing from past traumas is truly a journey. Triggers will make you think that you are back at square one, however once you make up your mind to start your healing journey you can never go back to square one. Idk who needs to hear this but be encouraged and keep going. I know things might be overwhelming or challenging right now but they will get easier. Don’t give up on yourself. You can achieve anything you desire with work and dedication. You are more than enough. You are worthy of love. #MightyTogether #MightyPoets #Trauma #PTSD #MentalHealth #Inspiration #encouragement #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety

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Rejection

Today I experienced rejection
Normally when I experience rejection it tickles the wounds of my abandonment
Thoughts of death come flooding just as the words of rejection roll off the individual’s tongue
The world becomes bleak and dark
And every once of joy escapes me
The negative thoughts blare in my head
And my negative core beliefs begin to sing
You’re inadequate
No one will ever love you
You are damaged beyond repair
The thoughts consume my mind
Till I begin to isolate and slowly fade away
the thoughts consume my mind till I beg the Lord to die
But today....today I was rejected just the same
Today I called a friend who held me in my pain
Today I affirmed myself for every lie that penetrated my mind
Today I fell on my face and worshipped
Today I cried, but today I survived rejection for the very first time
#MightyPoets #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Rejection #DependentPersonalityDisorder #Codependency #Depression #MentalHealth

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Healing from your past

Healing from past traumas is truly a journey. Triggers will make you think that you are back at square one, however once you make up your mind to start your healing journey you can never go back to square one. Idk who needs to hear this but be encouraged and keep going. I know things might be overwhelming or challenging right now but they will get easier. Don’t give up on yourself. You can achieve anything you desire with work and dedication. You are more than enough. You are worthy of love. #MightyTogether #MightyPoets #Trauma #PTSD #MentalHealth #Inspiration #encouragement #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety

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Tired (Victim of Life)

I’m tired of being a victim of life
It seems like nowadays things just happen and I’m forced to accept it.
The pandemic, the loss of friends, politics, endless negativity and the list goes on
I’m tired....
I’m tired of taking all the shots
Where’s my ammunition?
Where’s my shield?
At times the pain feels unbearable
At times I question how the hell am I going to make it.
I’m tired, exhausted, depreciated
Where’s my ammunition?
Where’s my shield?
It seems like every time I build myself up
Something happens causing my hope to come crashing down
Where’s my ammunition?
Where’s my shield?
I just want the pain to stay away
The light to shine and forever remain
Where’s my ammunition?
Where’s my shield?
I guess I have to be my own ammunition and shield #MightyPoets #MentalHealth #Depression #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Anxiety #TiredOfMyThoughts

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Journaling

Writing is the door to my spirit and my soul. My externalized thoughts are the keys to my joy, making me whole. Like a mirrored maze, my words become reflections staring straight into me. My writing is the door to my spirit and my soul. #Selfcare #MightyPoets #coping #Therapy #Journaling #Acceptance