Stretch

@youcancallmestretch
Person first then, in no particular order, short-statured, anxietied (making that a word), sometimes depressed, sometimes clingy, challenged by grief, grateful, creative, caring, and have lived in six different decades though I am not sixty years old and not quite fifty years old.
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Kim

My wedding is in 3 weeks and my best friend who is in my wedding party has been hospitalized with a live threatening infection, and most likely won’t be there. I know it’s just a wedding day and his health is more important, but still it hurts. It’s already been a hard year for me. It all feels to much my heart is breaking and I’m trying to process it all so I’m not depressed on my big day. I feel alone. #Anxiety #depressed #summertimesadness

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First my Grandma, Now my favorite Aunt #Grief

I just got a call, last night, that my aunt passed away, only about 6 weeks after we just lost my grandma. My heart feels like it’s in shreds, right now. Honestly, more for my cousins than myself, though I was really close to her, too. She wasn’t anywhere near perfect, and I’m certain she had some kind of mental health issues, but she was the least judgmental person in my family, at least towards me. She was always the one to ask how I’m doing and called me out on it if I tried to lie that I was fine. I couldn’t trust her not to tell anyone, but I could trust that she would listen and not respond with judgment. She had been in an emotionally abusive relationship for 23 years, and had 2 daughters, now 24 and 21. They’d lived everywhere from a nice neighborhood in Aurora, Colorado, to a pickup truck in a Las Vegas campground, to living with my parents in Texas. Most recently, her daughters had been supporting both medically complicated parents in an apartment, and working many hours of overtime each to do so. Her daughters absolutely doted on both her and our grandma whom we just lost. She died in their apartment, as her oldest daughter did CPR on her. I can only imagine how much they’re hurting, right now, but being an empath and also dealing with my own grief, I’m feeling extremely overwhelmed by it.

#Highly Sensitive Person or HSP
#HighlysensitivePerson
#empath
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder
#Depression
#Anxiety

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Anxiety is a part of me

All my life i have been an anxious person. Though at the time i didn’t know that. I just thought that that is how i was suppose to feel. All through school i always strive to do my best, felt like others were judging me and was always nervous about something. It wasn’t until i graduated from college and had to go out into the real world is when it really it me. At this point i couldn’t control or maintain my #Anxiety , I couldn’t deal with what life was throwing at me. This is when i sought out help from my doctor and eventually got a therapist. It was such a relief to find relief. I began to work on my anxiety and #Depression . I felt more myself than i have in along time. fast forward years later, I got a job on a mental health unit. This job ended up being really good for me because i got to learn more about how to care for your mental health and help others. i learned more in depth about mental disorders and medicine. After fours years working as a PCA i became someone that was running the therapeutic groups. I was doing even more for people. I would learn new stuff that would help patients and myself on a daily basis. My own struggles with mental illness helped in relating to the patients and them knowing that they are not alone. Anxiety is a part of m e and can’t change that. I try to embrace it. i am not cured and still have battles with myself but each day i learn.

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Today’s the day…

My son is coming home today after being gone for 9 very long months. I’m getting ready to go pick him up. I’m also going home after staying with a family friend for the past 7 months due to my debilitating depression. I am sooo nervous to go home. I have so much cleaning and laundry to catch up on there and I’m so overwhelmed. Also I’ve come to be very comfortable where I’m at and going home just feels scary to me. But I’m trying to remind myself that I’ll have my son there with me and I’ll be ok. Please send prayers and or positive vibes my way as I go through this big change in my living situation. My anxiety is through the roof but at the same time I’m so happy to have my son home.
#MajorDepressiveDisorder #Anxiety #CPTSD

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I don’t need anyone

After crying for an hour that my boyfriend is leaving the country and never coming back, and my best friend for abandoning me. I’ve decided to stop allowing people to break me this hard. With my boyfriend, we knew this was bound to happen but I never knew it’d hurt this bad. I asked him to not tell me the specific date he was leaving, I’ll be dreading that day. Should be early July.

I feel sooo lonely and alone. I have no one but I’ll figure it out always have. I’m just crying while typing this, unsure if I want to see tomorrow. But I have to be strong why? I don’t know. My life has been full of pain, everytime I have something good, it never lasts. I’m tired of the pain and the crying. I’m tired of being strong for years. If God can take my breathe away, the better. If not, I’ll try to hold on. But I’m exhausted. I love my boyfriend so much but this is life.

Maybe one day I’ll be happy and somehow it’ll last. #Depression #CheckInWithMe #DistractMe

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I don’t need anyone

After crying for an hour that my boyfriend is leaving the country and never coming back, and my best friend for abandoning me. I’ve decided to stop allowing people to break me this hard. With my boyfriend, we knew this was bound to happen but I never knew it’d hurt this bad. I asked him to not tell me the specific date he was leaving, I’ll be dreading that day. Should be early July.

I feel sooo lonely and alone. I have no one but I’ll figure it out always have. I’m just crying while typing this, unsure if I want to see tomorrow. But I have to be strong why? I don’t know. My life has been full of pain, everytime I have something good, it never lasts. I’m tired of the pain and the crying. I’m tired of being strong for years. If God can take my breathe away, the better. If not, I’ll try to hold on. But I’m exhausted. I love my boyfriend so much but this is life.

Maybe one day I’ll be happy and somehow it’ll last. #Depression #CheckInWithMe #DistractMe

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Has anyone ever had a panic attack in front of their children?

I had a mild panic attack in front of my sixteen year-old daughter yesterday (neither of us were in any danger—I was panicked about paperwork that needed to be resubmitted). I could tell she was uncomfortable with it as she asked me to stop shaking my leg. I feel so embarrassed about it. I feel like I was weak and incapable. How do you talk to your children about your anxiety and panic attacks? Should I just try to find a way to step away? (though there was not a place I could do that)

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Has anyone ever had a panic attack in front of their children?

I had a mild panic attack in front of my sixteen year-old daughter yesterday (neither of us were in any danger—I was panicked about paperwork that needed to be resubmitted). I could tell she was uncomfortable with it as she asked me to stop shaking my leg. I feel so embarrassed about it. I feel like I was weak and incapable. How do you talk to your children about your anxiety and panic attacks? Should I just try to find a way to step away? (though there was not a place I could do that)

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Has anyone ever had a panic attack in front of their children?

I had a mild panic attack in front of my sixteen year-old daughter yesterday (neither of us were in any danger—I was panicked about paperwork that needed to be resubmitted). I could tell she was uncomfortable with it as she asked me to stop shaking my leg. I feel so embarrassed about it. I feel like I was weak and incapable. How do you talk to your children about your anxiety and panic attacks? Should I just try to find a way to step away? (though there was not a place I could do that)

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Suicidal ideation

Suicidal thoughts have really been plaguing my mind recently , what are some of your hobbies that help you distract your brain ? #Depression

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