Realizing almost a year later that I was indeed his FP. The fights that happened monthly got more intense each month. Now I wonder if I should have just not went the last time from the last fight? Would he still be here? Would he have held someone else at gunpoint? Who would have been so violently assaulted? Who would he have stood less than 3 feet away from and pulled the trigger? What could I have done. Now I’m at the point I wish he would have taken me first because the vast amount of punishment mentally I’ve went through is indescribable. Are there BPD/FP relationships that actually do make it??? I need to know more, please #pleasereadwithcaution #FPLOST HERBPDP