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I found this on facebook, written by a user called Narcissist's Daughter.
#CPTSD
They sell healing like a destination. Get therapy, do the work, cross the finish line, declare yourself healed; congratulations, you're fixed. That's not how trauma works and it's certainly not how recovering from a narcissistic mother works. Healing is less like climbing a mountain with a summit and more like walking a spiral staircase where you keep passing the same windows, seeing the same view, except each time you're higher up and the perspective has shifted. You're not going in circles; you're going in cycles and there's a difference.​

You'll think you've processed the abandonment, made peace with her inability to love you properly, built boundaries, moved on and then something will trigger it again and you're back in that familiar grief. Except you're not actually back. You're revisiting it with tools you didn't have before, awareness you've earned through years of healing and a nervous system that can hold what would have destroyed you the first time through. The wound looks the same because it's the same source, but you're meeting it as a different person now. That's not regression. That's integration.​

The deeper layers don't reveal themselves until you're strong enough to handle them. Your psyche is protective, it won't show you the full extent of the damage whilst you're still trying to survive it. So you heal one layer, feel like you've arrived, start building your life and then boom, another level unlocks. More memories. Deeper understanding of how her behaviour shaped you. New awareness of patterns you've been unconsciously replicating. It feels like failure because you thought you were done, but it's actually your system finally trusting you enough to go deeper.​

This cyclical process is exactly how complex trauma heals. Safety and stabilisation, then processing, then integration and then back around again when new layers emerge or old wounds get triggered by new life circumstances. Each cycle isn't starting from zero; it's building on everything you've already learnt. You're not losing progress, you're deepening it. The fact that you're encountering these wounds again means you're alive, you're growing, you're in relationships and situations that are bringing up what still needs attention.​

Integration isn't about making the trauma disappear. It's about weaving it into your story in a way that doesn't control your life anymore. Understanding that healing is cyclical frees you from the expectation that you should be "over it" by now. You're not meant to be over it, you're meant to be moving through it, returning to it when necessary, extracting new wisdom each time. That's not failure. That's exactly how healing is supposed to work.

#healingiscyclical #notlinear #integration #deeperlayers #revisitingwithawareness #notfailure #complextraumahealing #spiralnotcircle

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Im not going anywhere# cptsd#munipulation #Abuse

Well,no, I will not be quiet about whats has been done.Let's talk about, letting the cat out of the https://bag.Two strangers in one day tell me I need a police report and, joking a restraining order.
Then this https://morning.I did not expect a genuine bomb like that to be dropped in my https://lap.And then the reaction to follow, https://BOOM.The ringleader, taken a fckn https://bow.Damage control time, I suppose and right before the holidays.
Amazing that a charade, could bring so many munipulative players together.my therapist warned me,of it two years ago, I couldn't accept https://it.This is typical behavior, nothing original or out of the ordinary, I was told.

It does show the depth a man will go to for a
$$. I never wanted https://it.Dont be https://fooled.I didn't.They, have alot to loose. That is the grossest part, no admittance of guilt, nothing.im not going to be the scapegoat here, sorry.
I let myself, anger fly, gave myself permission, over the past https://year.There is a process and I had to learn that only, no one to participate with, big learning curve.
I have, lost it, here a few times,where I feel it was out of control, ranting, ruminating, mad scientists https://level.But this, https://no.One sentence, the other jumped.Wow.
I have every right to be angry, that I was phased out, without being https://told.A narrative was laid out, three years ago and this past year, has been strung very tight, between certain players and this morning, the biggest clown in the circus show, blew that up.
I am disgusted with All https://involved.Not one person, I hurt personally nor havs anyone ever spoken, to me.no https://attempt.This will not be going away, people will be hurt that should not have, been,involved.

I will happily remove myself when Im ready and able, but again, I won't be quiet, just to make you https://comfortable.You all, had time and opportunity to communicate, with me, with words.
Instead, you chose to gather up the masses, the $$ and the bottom https://feeders.Thanks for showing me true character, I am relearning that,by example and https://pettiness.I am not surprised how quick life, takes things from you, when you are forthcoming. I lived https://it.It was all Not who brought the narrative, he was ashamed and embarrassed of https://us.And his actions have proven https://that.I have a memory that likes to fckin boomerang me https://back.I hate https://it.When the entire picture flashes in front of you, its nauseous, surreal,numbing and https://paralyzing.And in my situation, I feel https://paralyzed.And I do understand now, that was the intent, the intended impact.id be without control, without choice, isolated and stuck.to intentionally put someone, who is already, vulnerable, in that position, is not love, that is not care. I am disappointed in every person, that said they were there for https://me.No.I do not see it.
I did tell the https://truth.And I am Still, being punished for https://it.I did get through it, https://alone.I did reach https://out.I did show https://up.I did ask for https://clarity.I did give https://grace.I was and am grateful, for my life, my son and his future.
Oh, but I wanted to know how, where and who?
I wanted to know who,is involving my,family? Who is, manipulating my Son?Why, are there so many involved?But Im wrong? NO. Im asking valid questions.im questioning why I was not told, a https://thing.Why was I being lied https://to.Why I have a fake phone line between her and I?
Common denominator means what? I am dealing with extremely dark triad personality stuff here and Im not going to sit by and ignore my life being https://taken.Why anyone would go behind my back, to have relationships with my Sons kid, thats their character flaw, not https://mine.To insert yourself between two people, who should be getting acquainted, is sick .Her, who has been plotting against me for the last, three https://years.Who told me to come to her when, things get bad?She https://did.Then uses it as https://amunnition.Trashes your entire being and then goes after https://family.Stay away from woman, who maliciously Hurt and Gossip, other https://women.Ecspecially the ones that go after their Own, to protect their image.

Together Living

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The Beatitudes

The Beatitudes
The Beatitudes are Jesus' teachings on how to live a blessed or happy life, found in the Gospels. They are a set of eight virtues that describe the character of those who will receive God's blessings, such as the poor in spirit, the meek, the merciful, and the peacemakers. In simple terms, they are a roadmap to finding true, lasting joy and a deeper relationship with God by living a life of humility, compassion, and justice.

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The Ten Commandments

The Ten Commandments

The Ten Commandments are a set of religious and moral rules from the Bible, including injunctions to worship only one God, not to misuse God's name, keep the Sabbath holy, and honor parents. They also include prohibitions against murder, adultery, theft, false witness, and coveting, serving as a foundational code for Jewish and Christian faiths. The first four commandments relate to one's relationship with God, while the last six focus on relationships with other people.

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The hardest thing you will ever have to do…

We need to be there for ourselves first. Have enough respect and self-love for ourselves first.. #Selfcare #Relationships #Abuse #PTSD

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All in vein# avm#DBT #cptsd#OCD #Relationships

Seeing how someone else views,self exploration and philosophy, fascinates https://me.How people can judge someone elses experience?To have your physical feelings, questioned and https://invalidated.To be told, you had yourself dying, after fearing https://death.That to me is https://weird.I wouldnt look at a sick person and tell them to hurry https://up.Or tell a dog he shouldn't wag his https://tail.I catch my tone, I am aware, still, how angry I https://am.I work and my trigger, is in My face, daily.

I was disposable, phased out and left, after https://begging.I told the truth and was punished,point https://blank.You cannot orchestrate a lesson, magically to deal out karma like a cost of FAFO, you cant play with others for sport,a bet or a story line for gossip night https://dinners.Life is greater than that. And Im going to laugh at it https://now.I did let https://go.I was happy and moving forward.Others,are tripping up, over https://themselves.Im still giving myself grace https://first.I wont take https://part.I am sorry my bitchy abrasiveness, is too much, for the girls https://club.I had one influencer for https://years.And
"Im bad", is the most original insult, someone, like me, can https://get.Step up or step off.
Yes, I am a human being, with https://flaws.Pull up or Mirror up!! 😆
Thank you.

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She's angry #avm #CPTSD #cbt#

Someone feeling they have the right to sabotage and orchestrate your life for the better, without your participation, is controlling munipulation 101.to dig up information, stalk, harrass, mock, stage and pretend it is Out of concern, is another level of https://abuse.Calling out abuse can become https://abuse.I will not participate and https://partake.Setting a woman up to teach her a lesson, is abusive.
Any women, taking part, are as enabling, as the https://man.I said it.Sorry.
Keep your old school, mobster mentality, out of my https://life.The personal attacks towards my life, judgements by people, who never were part, is https://comical.Im no fool, I https://knew.I have years of abuse, trauma, from many people, my life circumstances and life choices,that have brought me through. Not from,these individuals,being emotionally supportive.
Im not coddled, pampered or given the princess treatment, like most have been led to believe, never https://was.The bare minimum,is no longer,acceptable.I let it be for https://years.When I asked for more, I was met with a https://fight.I have become a broken https://record.I am smashing the record.to expect a woman to be soft,sweet,nurturing after disrespecting her publicly,is Delussional.But, I do see where, all involved, see nothing wrong with it.
Projection is https://funny.I catch myself https://constantly.I observe too much behavior, its a peculiar https://thing.Ive done it my entire https://life.I forget that a majority of them, are so trauma bonded, that no one will, not, be judged, when that door, for real connection, is https://opened.I did show https://up.He did not want me to.
Acceptance and intimacy, in relationships, shouldn't https://judge.Good and bad, are you serious? Im Bad? OK.
I wear my flaws, I'll tell you my failures but not everyone is willing to do https://that.I can't be around people who do that.it is automatic,a closed mindedness to human https://behavior.Your problem with me, is You, not https://me.Mean girl https://mentality.Band of brothers https://bullshit.Say I just dont know friends, then.No, I do not, I have had to reevaluate the entire https://structure.I bonded with people through https://survival.Anyone from my https://teens.They do not know me, they know,of, https://me.Epic 😆 🤣 😂.Im actually quite lame.

Heres a few,How could she? Who does she, think she is?Well, I'd https://never.Try this instead.

She should.
She knows, who she is.
She deserves better.
She doesnt want things, she wants things consistant, completed and she wants to https://grow.That is not control, it is safety.

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Fruits Of The Spirit

Fruits Of The Spirit
Charity (Love): Self-sacrificing love that puts others' needs before our own.
Joy: A lasting happiness rooted in God, not just in earthly pleasures.
Peace: Inner tranquility that comes from a relationship with God.
Patience: The ability to endure hardships and wait for things to unfold with grace.
Kindness: A disposition of being warm, friendly, and considerate towards others.
Goodness: Moral integrity and a commitment to doing what is right.
Faithfulness: Loyalty to God and keeping one's promises and commitments.
Gentleness: A sensitive, humble, and tender approach to others.
Self-control: Moderation and the ability to control one's desires and impulses.
Modesty: A sense of propriety, which includes appropriate behavior and speech.
Chastity: The proper use of one's sexuality within the context of a life dedicated to God.
Generosity: A bigheartedness that involves unselfish giving of oneself and one's resources.

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