LGBTQIA+

I'm the trifecta of evil... Gay trans and pagan. Half the room wants me in their bed or their blanket fort and the other half wants me in a grave. Fun times. But no lemme tell you something. I've had knives and guns pulled on me. I've been chased with a gun in the subways of Chicago so late at night nobody was available to help me. I've been raped by straight men who wanted to degrade me for having tits. I had been beaten by my dad for wanting to "mutilate" my body 4 months before he died.
I was so happy when he died. My mom and their 2 biological daughters went to pay respect and I was not allowed to go say goodbye. Not that I care. But they forced me to wear a dress. I was gigantic and looked like a man in a dress. It was humiliating.
Dear mom. Listen up bitch , this is my Master class. When I nicely ask you to address packages to Nox Caelum, it's a matter of safety. My neighbors know me as Nox. If they see a package for my apartment to a different name we gon have a teensy problem.
I give you the kind version of me asking for my identity to be respected. Once. After that I assume it is an aggression and disrespect to me. And I'm not giving warnings. I will simply cut you out of my life. Like I did a month ago. Which is why I'm turning to the mighty for a place to vent. Because you don't deserve a spot in my life.
#Family #Abuse #LGBTQ

I'm the trifecta of evil... Gay trans and pagan. Half the room wants me in their bed or their blanket fort and the other half wants me in a grave. Fun times. But no lemme tell you something. I've had knives and guns pulled on me. I've been chased with a gun in the subways of Chicago so late at night nobody was available to help me. I've been raped by straight men who wanted to degrade me for having tits. I had been beaten by my dad for wanting to "mutilate" my body 4 months before he died.
I was so happy when he died. My mom and their 2 biological daughters went to pay respect and I was not allowed to go say goodbye. Not that I care. But they forced me to wear a dress. I was gigantic and looked like a man in a dress. It was humiliating.
Dear mom. Listen up bitch , this is my Master class. When I nicely ask you to address packages to Nox Caelum, it's a matter of safety. My neighbors know me as Nox. If they see a package for my apartment to a different name we gon have a teensy problem.
I give you the kind version of me asking for my identity to be respected. Once. After that I assume it is an aggression and disrespect to me. And I'm not giving warnings. I will simply cut you out of my life. Like I did a month ago. Which is why I'm turning to the mighty for a place to vent. Because you don't deserve a spot in my life.
#Family #Abuse #LGBTQ

I don't know why I thought the bearded community wouldn't be full of transphobic dude bro assholes but I'm shocked by how intense it is.
I made an introduction post on Facebook in a group run by a beard care company called Fable. At first there were a few ok replies but then pbbblttttt out poured the transphobic rhetoric. Admins turned off comments. But people can still react to the post and so far it's been angry and laughter. 3 fourths of the reactions are laughing at me. I have never felt so ugly. People are awful.
#Prejudice #LGBT

I don't know why I thought the bearded community wouldn't be full of transphobic dude bro assholes but I'm shocked by how intense it is.
I made an introduction post on Facebook in a group run by a beard care company called Fable. At first there were a few ok replies but then pbbblttttt out poured the transphobic rhetoric. Admins turned off comments. But people can still react to the post and so far it's been angry and laughter. 3 fourths of the reactions are laughing at me. I have never felt so ugly. People are awful.
#Prejudice #LGBT

I told my mom when I was 5 years old that the doctor made me wrong because I was supposed to be her son. She punched me in the head. So I told her I was just kidding. She told me to never say that again. I never said anything about it until...
Fast forward to 16 years old. I read the book titled Luna. It answered so many questions for me. I finally realized I wasn't alone.
I came out of the closet to my friends in December of 2009. I came out to my family on Valentine's Day. The next day I was kicked out for being a "disgusting freak tranny whore". My dad said I was trying to mutilate my body. My mom cried and hit me and asked what she did wrong to make me a freak.
Fun times.
I haven't spoken to my mom since August 10th. I have no intention of reaching out to her. And she's not going to initiate contact. So I don't know.
#LGBT #MentalHealth #abandonment

I told my mom when I was 5 years old that the doctor made me wrong because I was supposed to be her son. She punched me in the head. So I told her I was just kidding. She told me to never say that again. I never said anything about it until...
Fast forward to 16 years old. I read the book titled Luna. It answered so many questions for me. I finally realized I wasn't alone.
I came out of the closet to my friends in December of 2009. I came out to my family on Valentine's Day. The next day I was kicked out for being a "disgusting freak tranny whore". My dad said I was trying to mutilate my body. My mom cried and hit me and asked what she did wrong to make me a freak.
Fun times.
I haven't spoken to my mom since August 10th. I have no intention of reaching out to her. And she's not going to initiate contact. So I don't know.
#LGBT #MentalHealth #abandonment

How much do I love random transphobic strangers deciding it's necessary to point out I'm a man with boobs. Like ok douchefuck, you've got your head so far up your ass but imma let you know I think you're a yucky redacted with WiFi and try to have a good day despite the fact that someone thought it was a good idea to give you Internet access.
And in a group for disability support no less. Because THAT makes sense.
Yes I'm a man with boobs.
Is it the end of the world?
Does my gender identity cause spontaneous nasal combustion or testicles to fall out?
Does my sexual identity make babies turn out to sell cutco knives in their teens or join cults?
God, wouldn't that be wild. I'm pretty sure I don't have the power to ruin another person's identity simply by existing.
Of course, anyone living on a fencepost can talk to me about their inner truths and I won't judge or dismiss. I am all about compassionate acceptance and love of and for my community who tends to be my family of choice. I will defend my identity to the end of me. I will stand up for my community until my dying breath.
And I think that is all I want to say about me.
#Transgender #LGBT
And a follow up note... I am a defender of minorities who doesn't use identity to hurt people. One person accused me of being racist.
Humans, all of us, are descendants of monkeys. All of us. We've evolved. But people who are cave dwelling neanderthals who cling to prejudice are just knuckle draggers. Got a problem with my perspective? Try being in my shoes with a history of being a rape survivor and having weapons drawn on me in public for being trans. And that's just the "trauma lite" version of the story of Nox.

How much do I love random transphobic strangers deciding it's necessary to point out I'm a man with boobs. Like ok douchefuck, you've got your head so far up your ass but imma let you know I think you're a yucky redacted with WiFi and try to have a good day despite the fact that someone thought it was a good idea to give you Internet access.
And in a group for disability support no less. Because THAT makes sense.
Yes I'm a man with boobs.
Is it the end of the world?
Does my gender identity cause spontaneous nasal combustion or testicles to fall out?
Does my sexual identity make babies turn out to sell cutco knives in their teens or join cults?
God, wouldn't that be wild. I'm pretty sure I don't have the power to ruin another person's identity simply by existing.
Of course, anyone living on a fencepost can talk to me about their inner truths and I won't judge or dismiss. I am all about compassionate acceptance and love of and for my community who tends to be my family of choice. I will defend my identity to the end of me. I will stand up for my community until my dying breath.
And I think that is all I want to say about me.
#Transgender #LGBT
And a follow up note... I am a defender of minorities who doesn't use identity to hurt people. One person accused me of being racist.
Humans, all of us, are descendants of monkeys. All of us. We've evolved. But people who are cave dwelling neanderthals who cling to prejudice are just knuckle draggers. Got a problem with my perspective? Try being in my shoes with a history of being a rape survivor and having weapons drawn on me in public for being trans. And that's just the "trauma lite" version of the story of Nox.

Everyone has mental health. Taking care of your mental health is how we have the strength to be there for others. Take a look at NAMI-NYC's free support group for LGBTQ+ where you can share your experiences with others who understand you: naminyc.org/lgbtq

#MentalHealth #LGBTQ

Everyone has mental health. Taking care of your mental health is how we have the strength to be there for others. Take a look at NAMI-NYC's free support group for LGBTQ+ where you can share your experiences with others who understand you: naminyc.org/lgbtq

#MentalHealth #LGBTQ