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What I'll Never Tell You as a Special Needs Parent


As a special needs parent, there are many things I will never say.

I believe most parents like me speak in “code.” I’m pretty sure I’m not alone with this.

I will never tell you that today I cried. I will tell you, “It was a tough day today.”

I will never tell you that today I wished I had somewhere else to be. I will ask you to swing by the house, only if you are passing.

I will never tell you that today I got a phone call to let me know that my son Ethan has showed a decline in his mobility and cognitive abilities. I will tell you, “He is holding his own.”

I will never tell you Ethan has a test coming up, which has me awake most nights. I’m afraid of the newest decline. I will tell you Ethan has a hospital appointment soon. I may even ask if you could watch my other two boys so my husband D and I can both attend.

I will never tell you that the school rang with another behavior issue, which made me feel like a sh***y mother. I will tell you I’m a little cranky today, so bear with me.

I will never tell you the real reason I don’t sleep at night. I will tell you I have a slight case of insomnia, or D was snoring so badly last night, or the baby was up…

I will never tell you I don’t want to hear about how great your child is and how much they are thriving. I will smile and cheer along. I do care, but some days it’s harder to look past everything my child can’t do and won’t ever do.

I will never tell you that today I just needed a friend, a helping hand. I will tell you, “Call up and we’ll have a chat!”

Why do we speak in code? For me, it’s easier. It’s hard to be totally honest with your friends and family. It’s even harder to be honest with those who actually want to help and give you some form of support.

The truth is, parents like me don’t want to be a burden. We don’t want to have to ask for help, and we sure as hell don’t want to be pitied.

Well, what do we want?

For you to look. When you visit, just look. You’ll see exactly want we need in that moment during that visit. A simple little thing like a cup of coffee can go a long way. Get to know our special little ones so that when you do offer to babysit, we are happy to take you up on the offer. Visit us. Bear with us as we try to converse. Please never feel you are in the way.

And do talk about your worries, fears, relationships and wonderful children. This makes me feel just like you —a mom, a friend, a sister, a partner.

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A version of this post originally appeared on Firefly Friends.

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When a Man Called My Son With Hunter Syndrome a 'That'


“Can we just make sure he has a room to himself, please,” I called after the nurse as she turned on her heels and left the waiting area.

I could feel their eyes on me as one parent whispered to the other. Ethan was now trying to knock over the huge goldfish tank. I didn’t have time to eyeball them back. I bent down to Ethan. “Room ready soon,” I told him as he began to kick and scream. I tried all the distraction tools, the usual treats and promises, but he was having none of it.

The tears came fast as his demands grew. “I go home,” he roared as he pushed me hard against the tank. She returned at that moment. “Room is ready for…” she glanced at her clipboard. “Ethan,” she finally said. “Here!” I stood up, “Come on baby, we go see TV.” I smiled at him, hoping he’d happily come along. No such luck. I threw his bag over my shoulder and dragged him down the long, busy corridor. “Nooooo fug off,” he squealed as we reached our room.

“Um, sorry but um… this is a ward,” I said, looking at her. “It is,” she looked at me, then at Ethan, who was now trying to gnaw his way free from my grip. “We, I mean, he can’t do a shared room, a ward, I mean,” I almost apologized. The other parents in the ward were now watching Ethan and me and this nurse. “Well, today you’ll have to. Sure, you’re only here for four or five hours, it’ll be grand.” My face flushed. “But, sorry, but… he can’t and won’t settle in a busy ward. You’ll have no hope of getting his infusion done.” All eyes were now on me. She took off her glasses and looked at Ethan, who was now wailing like a banshee and kicking my leg. I didn’t flinch. I didn’t advert my eyes from hers. “Today is too busy. He’ll have to stay here or you’ll have to wait longer, it’s up to you.” She stood firm.

I threw his bag on the bed and brushed passed her while Ethan head-butted her side. “Can you let Susan know we’re here then,” I said, without looking at her. I was annoyed. Ethan was annoyed. The whole bloody ward was annoyed. She left.

Ethan screamed and kicked as I tried to load up his portable DVD player as quickly as I could while dodging his punches. “Excuse me…” his voice was deep but quiet. I looked up. At the foot of Ethan’s bed stood a man I’d never seen before. “Sorry now, but my daughter is just back from getting the appendix out.” He nodded toward a small girl across from Ethan’s bed. I looked over then back at him. “Oh.” I stood up while Ethan was calmer now, throwing his DVDs at my back and laughing.

“You need to keep that under control.” He nodded at Ethan.

My heart literally stopped. Did he just refer to my son as a “that“? My mind raced. “What?” I asked, my voice beginning to wobble. “You heard me. Control that.” He pointed at Ethan this time. I froze. I didn’t have a clue how to respond. He walked back over to his child’s bedside and closed his curtain. My eyes stung as Ethan laughed and laughed, very much like a hyena. My legs turned to jelly and my lip wobbled while I told myself over and over, Get a grip, you can’t handle him until you handle you. I took some deep breaths.

The curtain beside Ethan’s bed slowly pulled open. There was a woman standing there looking at me. “Are you OK, pet?” she gently asked. I nodded. I didn’t look at her. I was afraid that if her face matched the kindness in her voice, I’d break. Ethan was oblivious to the scene which unfolded in front of him and was happily singing along with Mickey Mouse.

The nurse came back in. “The guys are ready now to put the cannula in.” I stood up. The woman was still standing there. I smiled at her as I took Ethan’s hand in mine. “Everything OK?” the nurse asked as I faced her. I nodded. We left to get Ethan cannulated and returned 25 minutes later. The man’s curtain was open.

I sat a very upset Ethan down and handed him a bar while telling him, “Susan will be back next week.” Susan, his nurse for the past six years, was sick today. Susan, who saw us every single week, had to pick this week to be sick. “FUG OFFF FUG OFF,” he roared as I tried to reload the unreliable DVD player.

“Jesus. Can you not control him?” The dad was standing at the end of the bed, again. “How long are you going to be here for? Are there no drugs you can shut him up with?” he asked with venom in his voice. “F**king retard,” he mumbled as he walked away.

I cried. I wish I hadn’t. I wish I could tell you all how I stood up to him, for my son, but that would be a lie. I sat on Ethan’s bed and cried. I cried for Ethan, I cried for me and I cried for how nasty people can really be… yet he, that excuse of a human, was given a perfectly healthy child, while I’d been given a terminally ill child. I cried more when I thought about how unfair life is.

The kind lady was nowhere to be seen, but the other parents there just watched and listened, not one of them saying anything.

Suddenly I heard my mother’s voice in my head, telling me to stand up to his “kind,” advice she’d given us years ago, when neighborhood kids would call my brother a “handicapped” or a “retard.”

Taking a deep breath, I walked over to his child’s bed, pulled back his curtain and calmly asked, “What did you call my son?” My face was bright red, I’m pretty sure of it. “Nothing,” he responded, looking up at me while his child slept. I wasn’t expecting him to deny it.

“I heard you.” I stared at him. He sat straighter in his chair.

“You need to control that over there and leave me here in peace.”

“Stop referring to my son as a that.” I didn’t miss a beat. He rolled his eyes. I could hear Ethan getting off his bed, I could hear him unsteadily coming toward me and I could feel everyone else listening. I lowered my voice. I’m sure I could’ve handled the whole thing better, but emotions and temper did get the better of me. “You, sir, are an a**hole, a very, very ignorant a**hole. I certainly hope you don’t teach your beautiful little girl how to be just like you.” I turned just in time to stop Ethan hitting her bed. “Come on, Ethie, let’s go and play on your bed.”

Ethan took my hand, then suddenly he stopped. I bent down and he gently kissed my forehead.

Maybe he understood how upset I was, or maybe he just wanted more sweets… I don’t know. “Blove you,” he smiled as I looked into his eyes. He turned to the man and roared “NOT YOU.” We walked over to his bed, where we stayed for six painstakingly long hours while he received his ERT.

The man didn’t bother us again.

I told the nurse as we left the whole story and why we need a private room every week, not just when Susan is there. “I’m sorry. The lady told me already and told me to give you this.” She handed me a piece of paper.

Later that night after I relived the day with my husband, D, I remembered the piece of paper. I took it out. There in black and white, she’d written, “You don’t have to be strong all the time, it’s OK to cry.” And so… I cried.

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To the Mom at the Pool Holding Her Son's Hand


I saw you.

I saw you hold your son’s hand. He looked about 11 or 12. That was my first tip-off. Most boys that age won’t willingly hold their mom’s hand in public.

I saw you checking out the hotel pool, scanning it for potential triggers. Searching for the best place to set up camp for your family — closest to the exit, plus closest to the pool.

I saw you prompt your son into the water, or as close as he could manage at first. His hands over his ears, he managed to sit on the side with his feet in. I saw his eyes squinting tight, but after a while, he relaxed. His hands never really came down off his head, but relaxing, he flapped them from time to time.

I watched you, your husband and your daughter all get in the pool and stand around and in front of him, forming a sensory shield. All smiling. But I noticed you, Mom, still scanning the scene, ever watchful.

I gave you a big smile. I know my tribe. I wanted to swim over and fist bump you or give you a high-five. Of course, I had my own son to keep eyes on. Plus, I never figured out a good opening line when I spot another autism spectrum disorder (ASD) family. “Flap here often?” isn’t so smooth. I could only hope you saw my smile that was just that, a smile. Not condescending or with pity. I just wanted to acknowledge you.

I saw you the next morning at breakfast. You “opened the joint” like we do. I smiled and wished you all a good morning. I overheard your son ask quite anxiously, “What time is it?” to which your husband replied quite wearily, “It’s vacation. It doesn’t matter what time it is.” I heard you sigh. You knew how it mattered but you also knew how your husband felt. Doing that dance of trying to keep the peace.

I hope you had a good vacation. Maybe it’s not the type of vacation others would enjoy, but for your family, it was great. I wish I could’ve told you how nice it was to see one of our own. That just seeing you and your family made me feel less outnumbered by the “typical” families around me. I wish we ran into each other more. Maybe we would’ve thrown our heads back and laughed at a joke only we could understand. Maybe somehow you’ll see this blog and realize you weren’t the only one at that resort with autism in your life. I hope you and I find more of our own wherever we go. To keep us company. To help and support. To sound off and give advice.

Maybe even just to share a side of fries.

A version of this post originally appeared on Autism With a Side of Fries.

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The Gift My Best Friend Gave Me After I Told Her My Son Has Autism


For a long time, my husband and I knew something wasn’t quite right.

TJ walked on his toes. He had no words. He squinted when he looked at lights. He stared at ceiling fans. He had frequent meltdowns for seemingly no reason.

It was autism. When the professionals told us, we somehow already knew. But hearing it from them made it real.

We were numb. We took some days for ourselves to absorb the information. We started therapies immediately and took our first steps into this lifelong journey that we weren’t prepared for.

After a day or two of receiving our diagnosis, we started calling our family members to let them know. Some already knew, since we come from a family of educators. Can’t get something like this past them. And they were all strong for us, telling us encouraging words of hope and strength.

Then I called one of my best friends, Jennie. She is one of the straightest shooters I know and doesn’t sugarcoat anything. We’ve already been through a lot together — this was just one more thing. She lives out of the country, and we only get to see each other once or twice a year. But that makes no difference. We always pick up just where we left off. I can always count on her. Always.

When she heard my voice she immediately knew something was wrong. I simply said, “TJ has autism.”

And then she started to cry.

And then I started to cry.

And it wasn’t until that second that I realized I hadn’t really cried yet. Until then, we all were being strong for everyone else. I felt responsible for my husband. He felt responsible for me. And we both felt responsible for our family.

But my no muss, no fuss friend made it OK for me to cry.

What a huge gift that was. Everything between Jennie and me has always been so honest, so straightforward, with no BS. And this was no exception. Once again, my dear Jennie gave me one of the most honest experiences of my life.

It was OK just to cry.

And so we did. And laughed. And talked. And I still got all the hope and strength I needed through those tears. But I really, really needed those tears.

And I don’t know if I ever thanked her.

So thank you, my dear Jennie, for that gift of allowing me to just cry so many years ago. It was the first of many “autism cries” that really helped me move forward with the task at hand and allowed me to get some serious work done with my boy.

I will never forget that first good cry, though. What an incredible gift.

What an incredible friend.

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Southwest Airlines Took Extraordinary Measures to Help a Mother in Crisis


Peggy Uhle was on a flight preparing to take off from Chicago to Columbus, Ohio, when the Southwest Airlines plane she was on suddenly returned to the gate.

Uhle was then escorted off the plane and told to call home immediately, WGN reported. Her 24-year-old son had suffered a traumatic brain injury and was in a coma in Denver.

A Southwest Airlines customer service representative met her at the gate, where Uhle was informed that the airline had already re-booked her on a nonstop flight to Denver. They’d also arranged a luggage transfer and delivery service, a private waiting area for her, priority boarding and a meal, Boarding Area, a travel blog, reported.

Within two hours, Uhle was on her way to be with her family. An airline representative even called a few days later to check on her and ask about her son.

We’re certainly proud of, but not surprised by, any of the hard work that went into doing the right thing for Ms. Uhle and her family,” Southwest spokesperson Thais Hanson told WGN News. “Employees are empowered at Southwest to go above and beyond the call of duty and follow their hearts to make decisions that positively impact our customers.”

Uhle’s son is still recovering, but she has a lot of positive things to say about the way Southwest Airlines treated her.

Southwest never asked for payment for the Denver flight, luggage delivery or anything else,” she told Boarding Area. “The care that I was shown is second to none. We have always liked Southwest Airlines and now we can’t say enough good things about them.”

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Why Did Depict Autism With This Photo?


On Tuesday, June 2, Sherri Brown — mom to a boy with autism, Mighty blogger and disability advocate — sent The Mighty the screenshot below of a article that appeared on The article, “Learn The 10 Common Signs of Autism,” included a photograph of a seemingly violent, angry young boy.

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Brown, owner of Project Bearings — a blog and organization that “provides a place to discuss advocacy and resource navigation with respect to autism spectrum disorder and developmental disabilities” — originally tweeted the screenshot, questioning why such a photo was chosen to represent people with autism.

Brown told The Mighty she finds the photo despairing.

“My first instinct when I saw this picture was that my child and family already face a certain amount of societal misunderstanding and/or discrimination, and the last thing parents of children with autism need is to compound this with a view of our children as angry or threatening,” Brown explained in an email. “My child is smiley and kind, and he does not deserve any additional stigma that a photo like that creates. He faces enough as it is.”

Others on Twitter echoed her sentiment, describing the photo as “deeply offensive,” “cruel” and “insensitive.”

The Mighty reached out to both and for a comment but did not receive a reply.

Brown said she’d appreciate an apology from both outlets and suggested they feature a new post — one that includes a montage of children with autism. “Real children with autism,” Brown clarified, “and their beautiful, smiling, kind faces.”

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