My List of Demands for Depression
My depression is the bad guy in this story: the thief, the liar, the beast. It ties me to a chair and holds me in a dark room until I succumb to its wishes: to be sad, feel worthless and stay in bed all day. It forces itself into my mind, trying to control me, but the tables have turned!
I gain control of my mind, turn on depression and lock it away. As I do, I name my list of demands:
1. You will not steal my joy.
I will not let you prevent me from being happy. I will smile. I will laugh, and I will mean it.
2. You will not glue me to my bed.
I will find the strength to throw back the covers and put my feet on the floor.
3. You will not isolate me.
I will shower and do my hair. I will grab my bag and head out the door. You are not invited.
4. You will not make me binge-eat.
I will not fill the emptiness you cause with food, even though you try to force me to.
5. You will not distort my body image.
I will not allow you to replace my mirrors with those from a fun house.
6. You will not make me lose interest.
I will ignore you when you tell me that my hobbies and interests are useless. I will do them anyway.
7. You will not control my thoughts.
I will not succumb to your negativity. I will journal out my thoughts even when you try to keep them in.
8. You will not make it hard to concentrate.
I will still read. I will still write, and I will not let you distract me.
9. You will not mess up my sleep.
I will not oversleep and I will not let you keep me up all night. I will combat your fight with my sleep. I will win.
10. You will not make me irritable.
I will take deep breaths and think before I speak. I will not let you lie by telling me my loved ones are annoying when they are trying to help me.
I am the hero of this story. I tame the beast, catch the thief and don’t believe the lies. Depression tries to force itself on me, but I am stronger and force depression back to where it came from. I will not let depression impede on my life and will not let it hold me down. I have a few last words for my depression: You will not stop me!