On Days I Feel Down

Today is just one of those days.

Last night, I found myself deeply depressed. Maybe it was me just missing my dad, maybe it’s just me feeling like my life should be different, or maybe it’s none of that at all. Maybe, I am just down.

On days like today, everything feels like a struggle. Everything feels like there’s an anchor attached to it, and no matter how hard I try, nothing will move. And depression will do that; it makes even the most mundane of tasks difficult, and it feels like there’s nothing anyone can do or say to make things better.

I wish there wasn’t such a negative stigma attached with depression and other mental health disorders. I wish people would feel free to talk about such things and know nothing is wrong with saying they are depressed. I am not ashamed to say I have depression, to say I have days like today, where everything is seemingly hard.

On days I feel down, I am hopeful for tomorrow. I am hopeful tomorrow will wipe the slate clean, that it will feel different from today. And when I go through days I feel down, I draw strength in knowing I am not the only one. I know there are countless others just like me who battle with depression. Some are still in the shadows living with depression in secrecy. I am here today to say it’s OK to come out of the shadows, to admit something is wrong. If more people could do that, it could drastically help the perception of those with depression and other mental illnesses.

Know you are not battling depression alone. It’s OK to feel whatever you’re feeling. Together, we are mighty.

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