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A Love Letter to All the Queer and Trans People of Color With Borderline Personality Disorder


Dear all the fab Queer and Trans People of Color (QTPOC) with borderline personality disorder (BPD),

I do not know what brought you here or what your story is. The truth of the matter is I love you and I am proud of your efforts. The efforts of getting out of bed every morning. The times you avoid your reflection in the mirror because you no longer recognize the face that follows your body.

I applaud and praise the glory of how you fumble through seeking your phone to avoid discovering the lack of text messages or invites to parties. I uplift your courage in trying to be OK and eating what can suffice your hunger. I am in love with how you handled that awkward situation last week with those people who made you feel insecure for whatever unknown reasons.

For every moment you do something to take care of yourself (whether that be emotionally, mentally, physically or spiritually) is a victory. It may not seem like a grand victory, but I tell you what, it truly is. I know things are difficult right now (especially given the election results, the fear of walking alone, the lack of support, the loss of friends, the fear of losing friends and so much more). Those feelings are valid. At the same time, you are loved. There are people fighting every day to make sure you are safe and that our quality of life increases.

When the emotions become too much and it is starting to become difficult to feel, do something on your behalf of your well-being. Write it out. Draw it out. Show it out. Work it out. Sleep it out. In all these things you do, it is amazing because you did it!

I am proud you are here and you are truly loved. Our ancestors have made efforts to survive and may they bless your journey of figuring this stuff out. I am proud that we are trans and/or queer. I am proud we are people of color. I am proud you are here. We deserve to be here.

If you’re feeling suicidal, or just needs a safe place to talk, you can call the Trevor Lifeline at 866-488-7386.

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