The Pain Inside After the Loss of My Mother

Where do you go when you are the only one to feel the hurt

The pain inside, why can’t it just go away, die

They said it would get easier with time

The only thing that got easier was hiding it inside

I would give anything for one more moment in time

Just to tell you I love you and I am all right

And to give you one more hug, oh how I miss

The tenderness in a mother’s arms,

That held me till the pain was all gone

That reassuring grip that evoked all your love

One more time, what I would give

One more bike ride to the park

Or swing of the bat

No one could take away what we had

Every day I think of where it all went wrong

So much to think about, I just have to move on

That’s what they say, move on, move on

How do you throw 15 years away

Where does it go

The memories will always stay

But there is a time when memories are not enough

They don’t protect you from the dark,

Or tell you how to do your makeup,

Or how to flirt with a guy,

They don’t congratulate you when you achieve something great

Or pick up the phone when you have something to say

My least favorite day, besides your birthday

Is the second Sunday of every May

It feels like a day for those whose memories are not all they have left

To celebrate the life of a person so dear

Who I haven’t seen in almost six years.

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