Depression Lies

It tells you,
you don’t belong here.
It tells you,
you should just disappear.
It tells you,
you amount to nothing.
It tells you,
you should just stop all of the struggling.

People try to convince you that you matter,
but it only just twists the dagger.
People try to convince you it’ll get better,
but it only deepens the pressure.

Depression lies.

It’s not just a bad day,
it’s a string of them that have decided to stay.
It’s a grey cloud over your head,
that you just can’t seem to shed.

Depression tells you,
you aren’t worth it.
Depression tells you,
you should just quit.

But, depression lies.

On the worst days,
you can’t get out of bed.
On the worst days,
your body feels likes it has just been unthread.

No matter how many times someone says they love you,
you’ll never think it’s true.
No matter how many times someone says you aren’t a burden,
you will never believe their jargon.

But, depression lies.

I know depression lies,
but that doesn’t mean it changes the color of my sky.
The sky is still grey,
and I still want to get away.
I know depression lies,
but I still let it make me cry.
They say it’s all in my head,
but my body still feels like it’s made up of led.

When will it end?
I keep going because I know depression lies.
But when will it end?
I hope I can survive,
even when I know depression lies.

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