To My Loved Ones, From a 'Work in Progress' With Depression

To my friends and family,

First of all, I love you guys so much. You have no idea how deep my love for all of you is, and I can never in my life be able to describe how much I appreciate all of you. You see me through my worst days and can enjoy the good days, which is something I’ll always be grateful for. You know who I really am despite my illnesses and love me even when they decide to rear their ugly heads.

Even with all your patience and all your understanding of me, I know how hard it can be to hang out or even listen to me sometimes. I know I can be difficult or frustrating sometimes, and it can bring you to your breaking point. Know that even when I am making you lose your mind, I don’t do it to make you upset. Those two stupid mean girls known as depression and anxiety like to play games and make me doubt you, and make me think you are going to leave me or say you hate me.

I know there have been times where I have hurt you because of them. I’ve neglected or shunned you, I have acted wrong and made mistakes that have upset you. I know I can never take back or change those times, but I want to be better. I know those two mean girls don’t control me. They aren’t who I am; you know that and I’ll make sure I fight against them every day until I am stronger than them.

Until then, I will do my best to fight them and be the best daughter, sister and friend I could possibly be to you. I will work hard to discover myself and become who I am meant to be and bring you along the way as I make that journey. I hope to have you with me for a long time and I hope we can make so many amazing memories together that they last a lifetime. I look forward to those memories and I can’t wait to make them. Know I love you from the bottom of my heart, to the moon and back and with every fiber of my being.


Your daughter, sister, best friend and work in progress.

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