It's 3 A.M. and I'm Awake With Chronic Pain

I’m awake at 3:00 a.m. Not because I just got back from a party, or because I’m up for a movie marathon with my friends. I’m up because the pain woke me up – again.

I’m up because no matter how hard I tried, I cannot go back to sleep.

I am up because the white noise won’t lull me back to sleep.


I am up because I won’t sleep for several hours.

I am up out of my fourth hot shower of the day, because it is the only way I’ve found to make the pain tolerable.

So I will scroll through your Snapchat stories of liquor stores and vacations and get no response to my texts, because most people are sound asleep.

Do not mistake my 3:00 a.m. Instagram likes for a wild night. Your definition of a rough night is much different than mine.

This is why I’m up at 3:00 a.m.

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