10 Signs My Depression Is Making a Comeback

Sometimes depression creeps up slowly, other times it hits you like a ton of bricks. Here are 10 signs that my depression is making a comeback and things I try to do to combat it.

1. My personal hygiene starts to slide.

I start skipping showers, stop brushing my teeth and hair, even getting clean clothes on is an effort. It’s like all this normal routine stuff just takes up too much energy — which I don’t have.

How I challenge it: Sometimes I just have to force myself to take a shower, at least every second day. Even though it uses up what limited energy I have, I always feel better afterwards.

2. I feel increased anger.

I have less patience and become more easily irritated by little things that normally wouldn’t bother me. I am quick to lose my temper and then feel guilty about it afterwards.

How I challenge it: I try and take time to breathe and think about the real reason I’m getting angry. Is it worth it or is it something I should just let go? Do I have a real reason for being angry or is this the depression clouding my judgement? Sometimes just stopping for a minute to reevaluate helps.

3. I feel increased tiredness.

I have less energy, trouble getting to sleep and struggle to get moving in the mornings. Constant lethargy makes me feel drained an unmotivated.

How I challenge it: I try and stick to a regular bedtime, usually around 9 p.m. and I try and limit the use of the iPad in bed at these times.

4. I have a poor diet.

I yo-yo between eating too much or not eating at all. Sometimes I gain weight and sometimes I lose weight rapidly. I binge on chocolate biscuits and other junk food and then feel awful for it after.

How I challenge it: While there is nothing wrong with occasionally having something sweet to eat to make yourself feel better, when it becomes regular occurrence it can be problematic. I try hard to stick to my normal diet and only eat small snacks, instead of bingeing on chocolate and junk.

5. My housework takes a back seat.

My house becomes messier and messier. I have zero motivation to clean anything. Even doing the dishes so I can cook for my family is hard. This one is a cycle because the more mess and clutter is around, the more depressed I become and the more depressed I become, the more I can’t be bothered to tidy up.

How I challenge it: I break the housework down into small manageable chunks. One chore at a time, or one room at a time, with breaks in between. I sometimes write a list and tick things off as I have done them as it helps give me a sense of achievement which in turn can motivate me to do more.

6. I watch too much Netflix.

I’m sure a lot of people have spent an entire day watching a favorite show on Netflix. There’s no problem with that at all — sometimes it’s actually good for you to have that down time. However, when that starts happening for days on end to the detriment of other things that need doing, it does become a problem. It happens to me sometimes when my mood is low. I push things away I don’t want to deal with and immerse myself in a show (or several) to escape the reality of what is happening.

How I challenge it: I use Netflix as a reward instead. I clean the kitchen, then watch an episode. I put a basket of laundry away, then watch an episode. I cook a healthy dinner, then watch an episode. I take the kids to the park, then watch an episode.

7. I become more of a recluse than usual.

I am very much a “home body” at the best of times, but when depression starts to kick in, I become even more of a hermit. I start thinking friends don’t want me around and that I’m a burden. I think I’m bothering them and that they don’t want to talk to me because they have better things to do than hang out with me.

How I challenge it: I take time to myself when I need it but also try not to decline invitations to go out when they come my way. Deep down I know the thoughts I have aren’t true, but it’s hard when you’re fighting with your own brain. Sometimes my brain can be pretty convincing.

8. I don’t talk much.

Sometimes, having a conversation feels like too much effort. I become quiet and tend to keep my thoughts to myself. I stop communicating with the people closest to me. Sometimes this is because I can’t make sense of what is going on and therefore find it difficult to explain. Sometimes it’s because I’m too tired and can’t be bothered to talk.

How I challenge it: Writing, writing, writing. I get all my rambled thoughts out on paper. Sometimes I will show it to someone and sometimes I will throw it in the bin. If I can sort out what is going on through my writing and make some sense of it, it may become easier to explain to someone else, and sometimes even that might be done through writing.

9. I’m easily upset.

I find myself crying over even the smallest thing. I feel like I have all this built up emotion and suddenly it only takes something little to cause it to overflow in the form of tears.

How I challenge it: I don’t fight it. Sometimes a good cry is very therapeutic. Sometimes I like to put on a sad movie or listen to sad music and cry and often I will feel a bit better afterwards.

10. I become forgetful and absent minded.

I can’t think straight. I walk into a room to do something and forget what it was. I forget appointments and things I meant to do. I sometimes forget to take my medication which obviously is not a good thing. I forget words when I’m talking to people. I go through the motions of my usual routine and can’t remember doing some things.

How I challenge it: I try and practice mindfulness. I try and be in the moment and keep my focus on what I’m doing now and not what has happened in the past or might happen in the future. I also write lists — lots of lists — of what I need to get done so I don’t forget. I keep a diary of important dates so I don’t forget appointments or things I said I’d do.

Follow this journey here.

We want to hear your story. Become a Mighty contributor here.

Thinkstock photo via Yuliyart.

Find this story helpful? Share it with someone you care about.

Related to Depression

split scream image Nirvana and Oasis

20 Songs From the '90s That Help People With Depression

We often turn to music during difficult times. When I’m in the midst of depression, song lyrics often describe the feelings I can’t put into words, and melodies can ignite a sense of humanness into a body that feels completely numb. And sometimes, a single song can momentarily lift me out of the deep sadness that [...]
woman in glowing white dress standing among birds with digital art style, illustration painting

When Depression Makes You Feel Like You Are Either 'Too Much' or 'Not Enough'

As far back as I can remember, I’ve struggled with feeling like I’m either “too much” or “not enough.” I can’t always put my finger on exactly why I feel that way, but there is just a general impression I get from others that leaves me with that idea. Or maybe it’s some kind of [...]
Demi Lovato

How Demi Lovato's Documentary 'Stay Strong' Encouraged Me to Share My Story

To a lot of people, mental illness is a topic that is shied away from. Because of this, I’ve been asked why I share my story of depression, anxiety and all of its other moving parts.  I remember the exact moment I knew something was wrong with me. The moment I knew I wasn’t happy [...]
An illustration of a man looking up

The Phrase That's Getting Me Through a Medication Change

Editor’s note: Please see a doctor before starting or stopping a medication. The sun is shining. The sky is blue. My daughter’s are happily playing in the paddling pool and my baby son is enjoying the world from my lap. The world is a buzz of people enjoying their Saturday. And I feel terrible. I’m [...]