5 Ways to Move On From a Breakup Caused By Your Mental Illness
I’ve been dealing with anxiety and depression long enough to know that they can cause problems even in the healthiest relationships. In fact, I’m certain they were central to many breakups I’ve had over the last 20 years. I get scared. I get clingy. I get sad. I get needy. I can be a lot to deal with — I know this. And even the most compassionate partners have had trouble handling it.
The thing is, breakups are already difficult. But when your mental illness is the cause of a breakup, it can make it that much harder. Not only are you left holding the remnants of the broken relationship — you’re often left looking in the mirror at the very thing that caused it to dissolve. You’re left to feel like both the victim and the perpetrator. It hurts — and it can make your mental illness feel that much more unbearable.
So, what can you do about it? The following are five tips to help you move on following a mental illness-related breakup and — hopefully — form more healthful relationships moving forward.
1. Look Within
You are not to blame for your mental illness. There are some behaviors you may not be able to control. But it’s still valuable to look within and see if there are things you can change for the better. Can you work on trust issues? Communication? Space? Co-dependence? Even small steps in the right direction can help with future partners.
2. Make Amends.
It can be easy to get defensive about our mental illness. After all, it’s not something we asked for. But you would be surprised at how empowering it is to acknowledge it — not only to yourself, but to your ex-partner as well. Take responsibility for the “crazy” — for the slammed phones, missed events or messed up plans. It’s OK to admit that your mental illness impacted both of you. And it will help you understand the power it has to do so in the future.
3. Take Some Time
See step one. Introspection doesn’t happen via other people. It happens by making time for yourself. Take some time to be alone — to get to know yourself and what triggers you. Take time to detail the types of qualities you need in a partner to be able to relate healthfully.
4. Be Forgiving
Of yourself and your partner. In my case, I know it isn’t easy to be my boyfriend. I know that I need to forgive people for their impatience with me, just as I would ask them to forgive me for the dates I missed due to social anxiety, etc. Life is not easy. Part of the burden is lifted when we accept this and forgive.
5. Release the Sense of Abandonment
Many of us struggling with mental illness may feel a sense of abandonment when someone chooses to leave us because of it. That’s natural. But one thing you must remember is this: It isn’t their job to love you. It is your job to love you. And you will continue to struggle in any relationship where you put that responsibility on someone other than yourself.
The truth is, I think it takes a special kind of person to compassionately love someone with mental illness — especially for the long haul. If you’ve experienced a breakup due to your mental health, take time to learn from it. Every lesson will move us one step further to a happily ever after — not because of our mood enhancers, but because we have finally found a healthy way to love.
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