'Game of Thrones' Actress Emilia Clarke Says She Felt 'Unattractive' After Her Brain Surgery
Since revealing in March that sheâs experienced two brain aneurysms, âGame of Thronesâ actress Emilia Clarke has been open about how the experience affected her, both physically and emotionally. On Tuesday, Clarke shared in an interview with Stylist that her confidence also took a hit, as changes in her appearance caused her to feel âdeeply unattractive.â
Clarkeâs first aneurysm occurred after she finished filming the first season of âGame of Thrones,â the HBO series in which she plays Daenerys Targaryen, the âMother of Dragons.â She experienced a subarachnoid hemorrhage (SAH), a life-threatening type of stroke caused by bleeding into the space around the brain.
Clarke had surgery to stop the bleeding and seal off the aneurysm, and though it was successful, doctors found another small aneurysm on the other side of her brain. This second aneurysm didnât warrant surgery until doctors discovered it had doubled in size nearly two years later. However, a massive bleed in Clarkeâs brain during the operation necessitated an even more invasive procedure.
âThe second one â there was a bit of my brain that actually died,â Clarke explained in an interview with CBS Sunday Morning. âIf a part of your brain doesnât get blood to it for a minute, it will just no longer work. Itâs like youâll short-circuit. So I had that.â
During her recovery period in the hospital, Clarke struggled to stay optimistic.
Though she was most concerned about the long-term effects of the surgery, she struggled with her appearance as well. The surgery had left her with a drain coming out of her head, titanium in her skull and a scar from her ear to her scalp. Recovery brought on an additional set of challenges.
âI was so full of drugs from being in the hospital that I had a lot of water retention, and one half of my face was quite swollen,â Clarke told Stylist. âI felt so deeply unattractive. What I can see now is that I could see the pain behind my eyes. And no amount of anything can cover that.â

For many people with chronic illness or health conditions, changes in appearance are common â whether theyâre the result of medication, surgery or the condition itself. It can be tough to watch your body undergo changes, especially when you feel like you donât have control over whatâs happening.
âAfter my operations, I didnât want to look at my own face,â Clarke added. âI donât normally, but all my emotions were heightened.â
If youâve struggled with a changing appearance, know youâre not alone, and your feelings are valid. Mighty contributor Alex Compton shared the following reminder in her essay, âI Never Thought Much About My Appearance â Until Illness Caused It to Changeâ:
Every day, I am fighting an invisible war within myself, and every day I have survived it; these changes in my body are proof of this. I shouldnât be ashamed of how I look because of the battles I face, I should be proud. If anything, they are a badge of honor and I should not be worried about what others might think. ⌠The beauty of my body is enhanced by its changes and, as it continues to transform, it will become even more magnificent.
Clarke has since made a full recovery, but continues to help others facing similar health challenges. In conjunction with several partner organizations, she developed a charity called SameYou that aims to provide treatment for people recovering from brain injuries and stroke.
Though Clarkeâs appearance hasnât changed much over the years, she said her feelings about her appearance have. â[Now] I always err on the side of wearing less make-up,â she said. âWhen you can look at yourself in the eyes and feel OK with whatâs looking back at you, then what more do you need?â
To read more about changes in appearance due to chronic illness, check out the following stories from our community:
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- 22 Photos of How Illness Changed Peopleâs Bodies (That Theyâre Not Hiding Anymore)
- How Iâve Learned to Embrace All My Scars
- 3 Ways to Boost Self-Confidence If Your Weight Has Fluctuated Due to Illness
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