I’m 37w pregnant and scheduled for a cesarean delivery in 14 days. I’m beyond fearful of the delivery, I’ve done this twice before but it never really gets easier. I feel a sense of guilt about even having another baby bc my other boys will have to share time with new baby brother. And to top it all off my oldest has decided this week is a great time to test mommies limits and push all the buttons. I’m at a loss. I’m emotionally drained and physically drained and yet my mind still has time to send irrational fears and my anxiety my way. I want this baby out so we can meet him but I’m also so so scared of what could happen when we do, and the pain that follows after surgery. Too many feelings at once to process. #egnantw ##pregnantwithanxiety