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Can't Remember What I Never Know
FYI: 13 y/o daughter has Asperger's. I have Huntington's. Live-in boyfriend is "normal"
It started a few days ago, my 13 y/o girl and I got in a fight...well...she got caught...so on and so forth. She got grounded. We fought the next 2 days after school...she was pissed because she missed out on the Halloween Dance at Boys & Girls Club due to her grounding. I am a yeller, not proud of it, but I am. Things got so bad the night of the dance that I was screaming at her at the top of my lungs, 6 inches from her face to goto/stay in her room. She finally did. Boyfriend left to get dinner (IMHO code for away from crazy yelling me). I collapsed in my bed and fell asleep, completely drained from all the fighting. I spent the next 2 days in bed, mostly sleeping, but when awake I had all the bad thoughts; bad parent, can't do anything right, piece of shit, bad person, should just leave before i make it worse, and more i don't remember.
I don't remember where I was going with this...great...let me introduce the bane of my fucking existence - Huntington Brain - it has the power to suck thoughts mid-sentence into the void without notice, the power to steal actual words out of your mouth, stop you in your tracks, but wait - there's more! or...is there...? I don't know. What was I looking for? That word won't come out, I will have to think of another way to say what I was trying to say.
At this point, I am frustrated and sad. I give up on the story.
