IWantSomePeace

I just mean to say, and I'm sorry I didn't have more space to put a better trigger warning about it because I know how tough to talk about this can be first hand, that I feel like I've allowed mental illness to take the best of my life away from me and take the control away from me in my life and I'm not sure how to take it back and be happy with my life once more.

I’m really not. My kid has an issue with soiling herself and not telling anybody. I’ve prayed, I’ve cried, I’ve talked with her, nothing works. I’m a failure as a parent to my child. I sat in the tub tonight and sobbed for 45 mins. I stared at my razor and listened to the demons in my head as they told me what to do. I held that blade for what felt like an eternity. I’m still here obviously. I put the blade in a safe place. I can still hear the dark in my head. I’m so mentally tired. #IWantSomePeace #IWannaBeNumb