Does anyone else have memories of their old “healthy” life come up on social media and just get sad? Or mad?

I have so much to be happy about. My husband and I have a thriving healthy cafe, grown children living happy successful lives, and a wonderful set of friends. I know most would roll their eyes at me for griping about not being able to run.

So I am venting here because I think this is one group of people who will get it.
Yes I am angry.

I am mad that a drug took away my active lifestyle. I went from a 350lb food addict to going back to college to become a nutritionist and then took up running 1/2 marathons and teaching water fitness and it was so so amazing. And now I do NOTHING physical once I get home from my cafe in order to be able to function the next day.

My customers and nutrition clients are my joy and they have no clue how much I hurt. They don’t know that I can barely walk once I get home. I smile and go through the day and then spend my evening trying to cut the pain enough to sleep. Hot baths, tea, prayer, leg massages from my hubby, praying for 2 hours of straight sleep.

All because of one stupid drug that now is banned in Europe and had the highest black box warnings a drug can have. #Levaquintoxicity

I feel guilty and selfish for crying over old photos of races. But I MISS MY OLD ACTIVE LIFE! I want it back. I feel like a bratty child for thinking ITS NOT FAIR!

Does anyone else have these thoughts? Would love to hear tips for getting past this! #Fts #Ciprotoxicity