I am in the final semester of my 4 year nursing degree, and man, it is hard to be successful when depression is hitting full force. I know I’ll be a good nurse, both at the skill/medical part and the nurse-patient relationship part. But that doesn’t stop my brain from trying to convince me that I’ll be garbage at it.

I wonder if I’ll ever live a day where I feel fully comfortable in my own skin AND comfortable with my mind. I wonder if that’s even possible. I really wonder if I’ll ever have a day where I genuinely want to live. I’ve started to accept that I may have suicidal thoughts for my entire life. But if that’s the case, I want to live a day where the thought can pop into my mind and I can tell it to screw off and that I’m happy.

I also wonder what other people experience with their depression. Do you hope for the same things as me? Do you feel like your depression tries to ruin your success?

How can we change this?! Is there a way?

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