Day After
Yesterday I did my morning routine. I got so angry at my step-son and I yelled at him, for lying to me. I despise myself when I allow my rage and anger to engulf me.
I stopped eventually and didn't yell the rest of the day. Being a parent is challenging, being a step-parent is a great struggle for me.
I relapsed last night after 12 days of sobriety. Normally, I would beat myself up and that would cause a binge of relapses. However, I started over, focused on doing my morning routine again today.
Morning Routine: Prayer, Study my scriptures, study my step work, workout, then eat. When I commit to this routine, I normally have amazing days and find myself being willing to submit to God and let the world be as it comes to me.
No matter where you are today, keep your heads up. Forgive yourselves, be kind to yourselves, and remember you are not alone. #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #slaarecovery #Lds #onebeardoneman