All Over The Place #SpinCycle
still stuck in yesterday’s junque, now it’s all starting to run together. Can’t even hashtag my experience because I believe it was an adult ADHD post earlier that sent me looking up emotional regulation leading me to a complete data dump on EBT and the need to rewrite my survival brain circuits. I am a fixer - fix me NOW. My brain is now on overtime, I had to walk away from machine. Now just recovering from returning the call to my one friend and she knows I’m not wanting to be bubbly for her so she goes right into tryna fix me. Misunderstood. The last thing I need is to hear that all she hears when she “reads” me is the message: “I AM NEEDY” and that to me sounds like survival. Mehhhh. Trapped in now more spin-cycles but I will wake up on a fresh morning one day soon and re-tackle that EBT data dump and devise my healing plan. #ADHD #CPTSD #Released