I typically do a great job of pretending to be "normal" but it can be exhausting. I constantly have revelations about things I do or think that majority of the population do not do or think on a regular basis. I like to think I'm a bada$$ b!tch but that's only 5% of the time. Otherwise I am a people pleaser. I was today years old when I realized the reason I concede my opinions and strive to please those closest to me. I am afraid they will be done with life. Like completely. Today I was able to put 2 and 2 together and realize that brewing plans to "leave" the situation of life is not everyone's gut go to solution to solve a problem. I bend till I break out of fear that I will be someone else's reason when those thoughts aren't even a remote inkling to them. Like WOW! I can disagree or dislike or choose another option or have an opposing opinion or even let someone down or say no and that won't snowball into their demise? Just WOW! Anyone else have these types of revelations? #Depression #notmybrotherskeeper #ormysisters #thoughtprocesses #Whatisnormal #whodefinesnormal #amibrokenorunique