Complex Post-traumatic Stress Disorder

Do you ever feel the bite
Of the wolves that haunt the night…
Do you ever hate the sting
Of feeling everything…
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
You open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close

Have you ever felt alone
In the shadow of your home…
Have you ever felt like you
Could fall and slip right through…
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
You open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close…

Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye…

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
We open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close
Hold that spirit close

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Do you ever feel the bite
Of the wolves that haunt the night…
Do you ever hate the sting
Of feeling everything…
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
You open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close

Have you ever felt alone
In the shadow of your home…
Have you ever felt like you
Could fall and slip right through…
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
You open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close…

Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye
Cross your heart and hope to die
Look that monster in the eye…

Hold on lightning
Don't close your eyes when it's frightening
Let that thunder grow
Through the ages
We open up all the cages and
Hold that spirit
Hold that spirit close
Hold that spirit close

#artastherapy #Music #Lyrics #LifeChallenges #Relationships #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #CPTSD #audhd #Anxiety #ConnectiveTissueDisorder #Grief #MentalHealth #Healing

Just a vent:
Yesterday, my niece texted me and said they would try to come visit tomorrow. Within 45 minutes, my niece got a text from my sister ripping into them for planning to see me.
This morning my sister sent this to my mom.

I have been no contact with my sister for about five years. I have been in therapy for almost ten. I have no idea what my sister is on about, but this isn’t normal. I can’t be scapegoating my sister for anything- it doesn’t even make sense. Even if i was scapegoating her- she wouldn’t know because I don’t talk to my sister or almost anyone in my family.

I thought if I was out of her life, she would quit talking about me. Obviously not. She has no new information about me or what I am doing. She doesn’t know about any of my health conditions. Historically, my sister has told my family I am making it all up because I used to be a psychologist- idk what that has to do with my physical health conditions. She tells that to my extended family and I have had to go low contact with them because constantly defending myself got too hard.

I also don’t know what games she is talking about but I wish I had games to play!

#Trauma #ComplexPosttraumaticStressDisorder #Agoraphobia #PanicDisorder #Migraine #ADHD #AutonomicDysfunction #POTS

These are some fall pictures I took on a walk yesterday.
These are soo beautiful! 🍁
I really like the contrast between the radiant colours of the trees and the blue sky.
And really made me happy.
Slowly fighting my way back to hapiness one day at a time. 💪🏻
#MentalHealth #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #SocialAnxietyDisorder #CPTSD

These are some fall pictures I took on a walk yesterday.
These are soo beautiful! 🍁
I really like the contrast between the radiant colours of the trees and the blue sky.
And really made me happy.
Slowly fighting my way back to hapiness one day at a time. 💪🏻
#MentalHealth #Depression #MajorDepressiveDisorder #SocialAnxietyDisorder #CPTSD

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#artastherapy #Music #Lyrics #Relationships #Trauma #CPTSD #Healing #Emotionalsupport

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Show me to the end of the night
Show me to the end of the day
Show me to the end of tomorrow, tomorrow

Show to me the path i should take
Show to me the choice i should make
Show me direction, direction

Show me the way
Show me the way…

And if i ever lose my way
And if i ever go astray
Show me direction, direction

Take me to the darkest hour
Show to me the strength and power
Give me the key

Show me the way
Show me the way…
Today…
Today
Show me the way

#artastherapy #Music #Lyrics #Relationships #CPTSD #Healing #Loss #MightyTogether

Show me to the end of the night
Show me to the end of the day
Show me to the end of tomorrow, tomorrow

Show to me the path i should take
Show to me the choice i should make
Show me direction, direction

Show me the way
Show me the way…

And if i ever lose my way
And if i ever go astray
Show me direction, direction

Take me to the darkest hour
Show to me the strength and power
Give me the key

Show me the way
Show me the way…
Today…
Today
Show me the way

#artastherapy #Music #Lyrics #Relationships #CPTSD #Healing #Loss #MightyTogether

(from “Black Sheep” by MILCK)

Black sheep, cryin' those rebel tears
It's a battle to survive these lonely years
Black sheep, you live up to your name
You've been told for way too long that you're the one to blame

You never mean to hurt yourself or anyone around you
But trouble's like a curse, a curse you didn't choose
The house you're in is like a cage, the walls and floor rage
It's hard to breathe, but hard to leave

Look up, you’re not alone
You’ll make a home of your own
Don’t let anyone turn your unique into flaws
Yeah, you know that I love you the way that you are
Take those sticks and stones and make a home of your own
Every warrior grows from her battles and scars
Yeah, you know that I love you the way that you are…
Dear black sheep

It runs deep, it's insatiable
That hunger to be seen and to be understood
Black sheep, they call me that, too
I've wrestled with the dark, but I made it through
And so will you

Look up, you’re not alone
You’ll make a home of your own
Don’t let anyone turn your unique into flaws
Yeah, you know that I love you the way that you are
Take those sticks and stones and make a home of your own
Every warrior grows from her battles and scars
Yeah, you know that I love you the way that you are
Black sheep…

The house you build,
It will be safe and be full of light and space
You'll finally breathe, my dear black sheep

Look up, you're not alone, you'll make a home of your own
Don’t let anyone turn your unique into flaws
….you know that I love you the way that you are
Take those sticks and stones (sticks and stones)
And make a home of your own (all of your own)
Every warrior grows from her battles and scars
And you know that I love you the way that you are
And you know that I love you the way that you are
…you know that I love you the way that you are

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