Poke Prod Poke
I am so over being constantly monitored and feeling like a mystery science project.
Constant labs and test. Scheduling . Worry. Stress.
No answers no results okay we are just monitoring progression.
I question why I even go. Wishing I never went to the doctor in the first place. Feel like I never get news let alone good news. Always well your just gonna have to monitor it and we will keep guessing to see if anything helps your symptoms but we really don’t know squat about it.
Don’t forget your labs. Got test this week. Make it work with work. Sitting in doctors office freezing making symptoms worse because I was told I have to be here.
What if I just stopped. Stopped labs. Stopped medication. Just enjoy the time I have and live the best I can vs adding all this worry. If it’s meant to be it’s meant to be.
Conflict. Knowing I won’t do it. Knowing I’ll keep going . Just feeling defeated. #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD #AutonomicDysfunction #RaynaudsPhenomenon #RheumatoidArthritis #MentalHealth #Anxiety #ChronicFatigue #Depression