To the Woman in the Waiting Area Who Judged Me for Sitting Down

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Last week I was doing a bunch of last-minute running around with my mom to prepare for my upcoming trip. There was lots to do and many stores to visit. After we went to my doctor’s appointment and checked a few things off my list, we took a little break and stopped for brunch. The restaurant we went to was very busy and we were told we had to wait about 15 minutes for a table. We were looking forward to the food there, so this was no big deal.

We stood for a bit near the door, along with probably a dozen others, many of whom were much older. When two chairs in the waiting area became available, no one wanted to take them. Many times, they were pointed out and offered to people already waiting or just coming in the door. But no one sat down, so after a while, my mom and I took the seats. It hadn’t even been a minute when a lady nearby leaned over and said to me, “You should let the older lady sit down.”

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Miranda

Immediately I stood up and my spot was offered to others. No one took it, so after a bit of everyone saying they’re fine with standing, I sat back down, trying to hold back tears. This wasn’t the first time someone said this to me, and what made it worse was the lady seemed quite disgusted as she mumbled to her friend something along the lines of how when she was my age she wouldn’t have needed to be asked and just knew not to sit down.

But I’m not just an inconsiderate teenager, taking up seats that could be better used by someone else. It hurts me to know that is how people see me at times. I have a disability that affects my leg. I’ve had many surgeries ever since I was little to make it function better and cause less problems, and there will likely be more surgeries in my future. Standing for long periods of time can be painful for me, and pain can be very exhausting. Not only that, my leg is much weaker, and the opposite one often does most of the work, which really throws off the rest of my body when I stand for a while.

I’m not sure why this particular incident upset me more than usual. Maybe it was because I was tired and hungry. Or maybe I’ve just been stared at, spoken to, or judged one too many times for sitting down. Normally it’s on the bus, where I basically have to sit down because my balance is bad enough on solid ground, never mind on a moving vehicle. So it took me by surprise more when it happened in a restaurant. I know you can’t see it though — the scars, the pain, the difference in anatomy — so I forgive you.

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Miranda’s leg, after many surgeries

It bothers me, too, when people sit down who don’t look like they need to, but I don’t think it’s fair to judge them. For example, when I get on a bus and the accessible seats near the front are filled with people watching movies on their phones, reading books and chatting with friends, I try not to fall over as I make my way to the seat at the back, or hold on as tight as I can because I have to stand and eventually end up balancing on one leg, too scared to ask for a seat. I remind myself that I don’t know other people’s lives, I don’t know the exact reason why they decided to sit down, and I don’t think it’s any of my business to tell them what they should do.

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To the People Who Offer Prayers to Change My Daughter’s Appearance

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OK, folks. It’s time for a PSA.

My infant daughter has a large “birthmark” on her face called a capillary hemangioma. To be specific, it’s about five centimeters by six centimeters. It is usually the first thing people notice about her. How do I know this? Because it’s usually the first thing people comment on.

I try daily to remind myself most humans are kind and well-intentioned. I don’t get angry about brief stares. I understand it’s human nature to do a double take when you see something about someone that makes them different. That said, I think I need to share some knowledge.

First, let’s do some basic education. A capillary hemangioma is essentially a “birthmark.” Sometimes they are referred to as “strawberries.” It’s an overgrowth of blood vessels that usually recedes over time. For us, any other complications were eliminated, and my daughter Charlie’s lesion was deemed cosmetic. We watch it to make sure it doesn’t ever obstruct her vision, but that’s it. She takes a daily medication to keep it from growing any further while it’s in its proliferation stage. It should go away fully by the time she is in kindergarten.

I’ve gotten lots of different remarks from family, friends and strangers. I’ve done a lot of thinking, and I want to share some perspective as a parent. This is probably relatable for anyone who has a child who people think “looks different.”

We don’t need to talk about it every time you look at her. Her dad, brother and I see past the hemangioma at this point. Charlie is Charlie, and it’s just part of who she is. It doesn’t need to be constantly commented on, critiqued or questioned. I don’t need your opinion on whether or not you think it’s better or worse. It’s a part of what she looks like and that’s not changing right now — and guess what? It doesn’t have to. She’s unique and beautiful, and I would rather chat about her latest milestone achievement, her amazing smile or how gorgeous her eyes are.

She isn’t in pain or ill. She simply has an unusual quality about her appearance. The most common thing I hear is “I’m praying that it goes away.” Or “I will pray for her.” Or “Bless her poor little heart.” I’m constantly being asked, “When will that go away?” I’ve even heard things as harsh as “Turn her to her good side” or “She’s so pretty otherwise.”

I would encourage you, instead of praying it will disappear, to pray that she grows into a confident girl who loves herself no matter what she looks like. Pray that constant comments and opinions from friends, family and strangers will end before she’s old enough to hear them and wonder what’s wrong with her and why everyone is so worried about it.

I encourage you to look past it. What if I came up to you and loudly asked, “What’s wrong with your baby’s ____ ?” Or said, “I will pray for your child that her [insert genetically unusual quality] goes away.” Just consider that. Consider how it makes us feel when people are so hyperfocused on something so superficial.

Hold the pity. She’s a healthy baby girl and we are blessed. Her hemangioma is just as insignificant to who she is as a freckle on her arm. You don’t need to mention it, and you don’t need to wish it away.

She doesn’t have a “good side” we choose for family pictures. I don’t retouch her hemangioma in photos. Her entire face is my sweet Charlie, and it doesn’t matter what it looks like.

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Katie’s daughter, Charlie.

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The Incredible Team Who Gave My Son’s Short Life Extra Meaning

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Like many people, I’ve never meet a celebrity, and odds are I probably never will. But my husband and I have met several people who have become personal celebrities! I never expected to meet these people, but I’m so thankful I did. I had no idea what an incredible impact meeting them would have on our lives.

I’ve previously written about my son — how he passed shortly after birth and how he became a donor by giving his liver, pancreas and whole body to research. What I have not shared much about are the people who made his donation possible. The people who worked behind the scenes to orchestrate and facilitate each of his donations — the people most donor families never get to meet.

Some of the incredible people we have met include the coordinators at our organ procurement organization (OPO), Life Connection of Ohio, and the organization who found research recipients for our son’s organs, the International Institute for the Advancement of Medicine (IIAM). Although some people may not think meeting the coordinators who assisted with donation would be important, for us it was incredible. The coordinators were the first people we spoke to on the phone. They were the people who finally gave us a yes after hearing many nos during our six months of searching for options.

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Bethany and her husband Eric (far right) with regional directors from IIAM

They are the people who explained the donation process, told about the research studies our son’s organs would help and supported us as we tried to make the decisions that would best meet the desires we had as a family. The coordinator at our OPO made all the arrangements for a recovery surgery to take place at our hospital, and the coordinator at IIAM made flight arrangements for our son’s gifts to make it to the research recipients. These ladies showed deep compassion and sympathy as we planned our son’s birth and passing. It was wonderful to meet the people who did so much to make our donation possible and thank them face-to-face.

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Bethany and Eric with their coordinator from IIAM

We met the individuals who performed our son’s recovery surgery — the men who actually held our son in the operating room after he died and carried out our wishes for him to be a donor. I remember wanting so badly to thank them for taking care of my tiny baby and treating him with dignity and respect during his recovery surgery. When I finally was able to look them in the eye, say thank you and wrap my arms around them, my heart almost burst. I will be forever grateful that I met the men who were with my baby when I couldn’t be.

We met the individuals who decided to allow other neonatal families to donate to research by creating a neonatal donor program at IIAM. We have also met the staff that now regularly serves other neonatal families. Meeting them, talking to them and telling them what a difference they are making has been both rewarding and healing. Knowing the people who are providing this service has allowed me to encourage other families as they consider donation because I know they will be in good hands. I know these people do not take our circumstances lightly; rather, they are touched by each unique situation, each family’s wish to donate, and they have a genuine desire to help with a deep level of care.

It was also amazing to learn how many of these individuals played roles (both big and small) in our son’s donation, as they assisted the coordinator we spoke with on the phone by working out various details, assisting in paperwork, speaking with researchers, giving approval for things to move forward, and supporting our desire to donate. I love knowing both the names and faces of these people — the people who made my son’s donations possible. I’m so glad we were able to thank them in person for what they did to help us.

We met the person we consider to be our son’s primary “recipient” — the researcher who worked with our son’s whole body for eight months, during what we like to call his “internship.” It is almost unheard of to meet a recipient of a research donation, so we viewed meeting the researcher as a small miracle! Meeting this man was incredible. In many ways he spent more time with our son than we did, and during that time he was able to extend our son’s legacy by leaps and bounds. Having the opportunity to hear directly from him about all the things they learned from our son and how our son was able to help get a new device passed through the Food and Drug Administration was amazing. We learned how deeply he cared for our son and how he viewed him as so much more than just a “cadaver.” His entire team treated him with care, respect and dignity during the entire length of his internship.

We also discovered how thousands of other doctors will learn from our son through training sessions and printed material. Hearing the researcher express his gratitude for our son’s gift brought tears to my eyes and made me feel proud as a momma. I felt so much closure and peace after being able to talk with, thank and of course hug this incredible person we will feel connected to forever.

Meeting each of the people who allowed our son’s life to have an extra layer of meaning and were the “hands and feet” to making our son’s donation possible has brought us joy, healing, pride and made us feel a little closer to our son. These meetings have become some of the highlights of our journey. They are memories that we now hold dear. None of these people are celebrities and the world wouldn’t recognize their names if I listed them, but for us, meeting them was better than meeting any celebrity.

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Bethany and Eric (holding their daughter Hazel) with the primary researcher who worked with their son

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5 Things Not to Ask Me About My Visual Impairment

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I live in India and have albinism. While that attracts plenty of questions of its own, it’s the ones about my visual impairment that I usually find more difficult to answer. Particularly these:

1. “What do you see?”

It’s difficult to explain. And the answer often depends on a range of extraneous factors like the time of day or the lighting in the room. Sometimes, I can recognize you from a distance; other times, I don’t even notice when you’re right in front of me.

Also, I may be extremely myopic, but I can still make my way around without my glasses on. So please don’t gawk. And whatever you do, never wave your fingers in front of my face asking me, “How many?” That’s about the most annoying thing you could possibly do.

2. “Why are you squinting?”

Because I need to. Sometimes, I just can’t see very well, despite having my glasses on. And there’s no doctor or surgery that can fix that at the moment, so please don’t recommend your ophthalmologist. I’ve lived with my condition for 28 years. I’ve done all the research there is to do and seen the best doctors I can afford. I go for regular check-ups and get updates about the latest procedures available, so please keep your advice/suggestions to yourself, no matter how well-intended they may be. This holds true even if you are a doctor yourself or related to one.

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3. “Do you need help?”

If I do, I’ll ask for it. At least most of the time. Usually for things like crossing busy roads or reading menus printed on walls at fast food joints. But when you try to help me without me asking, it is incredibly offending, like you are making me feel inadequate. I can manage most tasks completely well; I just take a little longer to do them. For instance, at the ATM, I’m a little slow with pushing all the right buttons. That doesn’t mean you have to try to help me. Chances are you’ll just end up confusing me and I’ll take even longer than usual.

4. “Why don’t you drive?”

Because I love myself and respect others too much to risk causing an accident. Driving is great, it is empowering. I would love to drive myself around, but the truth is that my eyesight just isn’t good enough. Public transport can be very empowering in its own way — it gives me extra time to read or check emails or just plain daydream. And it’s kinder to the planet.

5. “Didn’t you see me smile/wave/gesture at you?”

No, I didn’t. And I wasn’t snubbing you. I will never understand you unless I come right up to you and stare at whatever signs you are making, which kind of defeats the purpose of gestures, I suppose. So no, please don’t put me through that. If you want to get my attention, speak to me. My hearing is sharper than my sight.

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LEGO Confirms New Set Will Feature Wheelchair-Using Figure

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Finally, LEGO has listened to disability activists and people everywhere who have been calling for them to include representations of people with disabilities in its toys.

  This week LEGO confirmed it’s released a new set featuring a young man using a wheelchair. The new toy was spotted at the Nurumberg Toy Fair in Germany this week and also at the London Toy Fair. It’s part of a new “Fun in the Park” set, according to ToyLikeMe, a campaign working to pressure toy companies into being more inclusive. The set also appears to include a guide dog. “It’s pretty momentous, even though it’s just a little toy,” Rebecca Atkinson, co-founder of ToyLikeMe, told The Mighty in an email. “It’s about the message behind it, which is far, far bigger than a little one-inch-tall plastic guy.”
  Pictures of the plastic beanie-wearing youth in a wheelchair were posted on the Promobricks, a LEGO news blog, Facebook page and shared on a website called Bricksfans. The release of this new figure comes after many months of campaigning by ToyLikeMe, which launched a Change.org petition last year that got more than 20,000 signatures. Last Christmas, ToyLikeMe submitted designs for a disability-inclusive holiday set and campaigned for that as well. Representatives from LEGO confirmed the existence of the wheelchair-using figure in the LEGO CITY set to the UK Press Association on Wednesday, the Daily Mail reported. The set containing the figure will go on sale in June.
  “For Lego to include a wheelchair-using mini-figure in one of their sets is a huge deal,” Atkinson told The Mighty. “I’m not sure they even realize themselves what they have done. It’s massively significant. For a brand as large and loved as LEGO, this kind of incidental inclusion speaks volumes. It says to children with disabilities that the brand is behind them, that they are part of the cultural mainstream.” This is the first LEGO mini figure with a wheelchair, although previously there was a LEGO Duplo range, a series of the toys aimed at pre-school children, that featured an elderly man in a wheelchair. That set was criticized by activists for reinforcing stereotypes about wheelchairs only being for the elderly. This new figure is a part of the LEGO line aimed at older kids.

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Image courtesy of ToyLikeMe.
“I’m delighted,” Atkinson told The Mighty. “I’ve worked hard to set this issue on the agenda within the toy industry and say that the cultural marginalization of 150 million disabled kids by the toy industry is not OK. I’m hopeful this is the beginning of real core brand commitment from LEGO to continue positively representing disabled children in their much loved toys.” The Mighty reached out to LEGO for comment but have yet to hear back. For more on ToyLikeMe, or to help support them in their efforts, visit their CrowdFunder page here.
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To the Person Wondering, ‘Is My Doctor Right for Me?’

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How do you differentiate between a “good” and “bad” doctor? How do you know if the diagnosis presented is accurate or if the options presented are the best ones? How do you know if your doctor or surgeon is suited to your needs?

I’m sure questions such as these go through the mind of every patient faced with a problem that is above average in complexity. It took me 10 years of trial and error to present you this list; some of the lessons have left permanent scars. I hope it helps with your own decision-making process.

1. The right doctor is similar to a good friend.

They listen. You should be comfortable communicating with them. They should never brush off or laugh at any of your concerns, especially if it is affecting your life a great deal. He or she has to take your pain seriously, be it physical or psychological, and treat you with respect. They should never belittle you or make you feel as if it’s all in your mind and that you are just being silly.

2. Always seek a second opinion.

This is probably the most important lesson I have ever learned in relation to selecting a suitable doctor. You’d be surprised at how different their opinions can be, and new insights can be garnered from every single one of them. What one doctor suggests might not be the only treatment option you have. I once had a gynecologist tell me the only treatment option I had was to have my entire cervix removed. Another specialist I visited was appalled by the extremity of this suggestion.

So if you do not trust the opinion of your doctor, or you just want to seek alternative options or a confirmation of your own decisions — get another opinion. It could be worth every penny you’ve got.

3. Listen to your instinct.

This might be obvious to some and takes a bit more work for others who, like me, tend to be have trouble deciding until all pros and cons have been assessed and obsessed over. I am now learning how to listen to and trust that little voice inside me again. More often than not, it already knows the right answers to my own questions.

Believe in your judgment. If that little voice is telling you your doctor doesn’t care or isn’t interested, it is probably right, and you want to stay away from them.

Why does this matter? Because you want to be treated as an individual and not just a job number waiting to be struck off the list. If you are being treated like the latter, there is a possibility your case will not be given the consideration it requires, and that might increase the chance of a mistake happening.

4. Communication and collaboration.

Chronic illness patients often have to keep up with an assortment of doctors from different departments, covering them from brain to bone. When you visit a specialist, they tend to look for and treat specific issues related to their field only, but everything in your body is connected, and one thing can leads to another.

I’ve found the best doctors I have and still have are those who are willing to communicate or collaborate with each other. For example, my rheumatologist takes the time and initiative to communicate with my heart rhythm specialist, and together they discuss the best course of treatment to take in relation to both issues.

One of the best healthcare experiences I have ever had was at the Cleveland Clinic — I was impressed by how aware everyone was, from the counter staff to the doctors and surgeons, on why you were there and what for. Their specialists get together to discuss the best solution to a patient’s problem. With a dozen brilliant minds put together, this can only be beneficial. I remember thinking to myself, So this is what good management is like.

Should you be interested in reading more about their system, this book written by Toby Cosgrove, their president and CEO, has some great insight. Keyword: collaboration.

5. Mentor more than boss.

And finally, at the end of the day, it’s your life and you can choose to live it however you wish. As with everything else, all you have to do is deal with the consequences of your choices. I believe a good doctor should be more like a mentor and less like a boss. He or she should never tell you how to live your life but should be there to warn you of potential pitfalls and guide you toward the right health path. They will never be in your shoes — you have to walk in them by yourself.

In closing, here is one of my favorite health quotes in relation to this topic:

You have your way. I have my way. As for the right way, the correct way, and the only way, it does not exist.” – Friedrich Nietzsche

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Editor’s note: This is based on one person’s experiences and should not be taken as medical advice. Consult a doctor or medical professional for any questions or concerns you have.

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