Why I Speak Openly About My Eating Disorder Recovery

When I was struggling, I only knew one person who had “done it” — who was in long-term recovery. While there are so many positive resources and faces on the internet for those looking for advice, to feel less alone, there are also so many negative influences out there.

So I really thought recovery was a rare, almost impossible feat.

While it is definitely the most difficult thing I have gone to date, my hope is that if I speak about my experience in the midst of hopelessness, loneliness and fear, I can try to be a face and voice of hope and possibility.

I am not a psychologist or a dietician and really have no professional advice, but I hope people can look at the articles I write and the photos I post and see that going to school, having friends and taking care yourself is possible. Life has so many ups and downs to offer, and your eating disorder does not have to play a negative role in your life for your entire life despite what the statistics say.

Recovery is hard work, treatment is not a magic wand, but if you want it, you can have it.

If you or someone you know is struggling with an eating disorder, you can call the National Eating Disorders Association Helpline at 1-800-931-2237.

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