Seemingly simple things that others take for granted, such as sitting at the dinner table, may well be impossible for you right now. There may also be a temptation to push yourself through symptoms much more than you usually might on any other day.
Something else that I think so many of us experience is your mind doing the whole comparison thing. Comparing how things are this year… to how things were last year. Times like Christmas make the passage of time very apparent and if you aren’t where you ideally would like to be in life right now, this time of year can evoke really difficult emotions.
I truly understand these feelings, as well as many others, which is why I’ve written this post. Hopefully it will help those of you not feeling too great right now, manage Christmas this year a little more easily and feel less alone.
Here are some little tips to help you manage the next couple of weeks….
Many people find Christmas difficult for a variety of reasons. These people may be physically well and able to attend a social event or trudge round the shops, but it doesn’t mean they are having the best of times. People who struggle with social anxiety, or illnesses such as depression will also be having a tough time right now. As will people who are feeling lonely or those who have recently lost a loved one. I don’t want to make this into a big list of why people struggle at Christmas! But I’m trying to just balance things out, as I know my mind has often been taken down the ‘everyones having a perfect Christmas but me’ path. It’s not always true.
2. Do something lovely for yourself.
This will obviously depend on your current level of health. But make sure you do something extra lovely for yourself to make your own Christmas Day the best it can be.
If you are bedridden, maybe have a special breakfast in bed? Light a candle next to you. Have some fresh flowers in the room. Download a new audio book or some lovely relaxing music. Let your family come and sit with you for as long as you are able. Maybe ask a family member to give you a little hand massage?
This year, I plan to have a peaceful day where I listen to my body as much as I can. I’m going to dip in and out of socializing, quietly slipping off to my room as and when I need to. I’ll do a meditation and some relaxing yoga mid morning and I’ll have a sleep mid-afternoon – but this is one Christmas time activity where we can fit in with everyone else, because loads of people have a Christmas day snooze!
3. Do what is right for you.
I’ve spent so many Christmases faking a smile, talking to relatives and pushing myself to sit and chat to people when my body has been screaming for rest. I’m not entirely sure why I used to do this? Embarrassment on some level at having to say, “I need a lay down now?” Or not wanting to miss out on anything, so forcing my body to stay upright when I really needed some quiet time laying on my bed.
I urge you to be aware of this behavior pattern that so many of us can slip into if we aren’t careful. If you need to excuse yourself, do it! Have as many rests as you need. What other people think shouldn’t matter as much as your own self care and your recovery.
This is an important one. We can put a lot of pressure on ourselves to have a “good Christmas.” With ideas about how it should be. Remember, that this is one day that will come and go. Just like all the others. This time in a couple of weeks it will all be done! Don’t allow yourself to get too hung up on one day and definitely don’t pressure yourself to try and feel any certain way.
However you are feeling, try not to forget the meaning of Christmas. It’s not really about how much you can “do” (although I know that in an ideal world we would all like to be feeling well and be able to do certain things at this time of year). Christmas will have its own personal meaning for you. But for many, it is a time to celebrate and show love to our families and those we care about. We can do this, regardless of how well we are feeling.
5. Create a little ritual for yourself.
This is something I first did last year and shall be doing again this year. Last Christmas was difficult one for me personally as it marked the first year since my Dad passed away (he died on the night of December 26, 2014).
Because I had a feeling it may be a little difficult, I decided a few weeks beforehand, to do a little Christmas ritual for myself on Christmas day. To create some space for myself on a day that had the potential to be overwhelming.
Mid-morning I quietly took myself off to my room, lit a candle, and did some silent meditation. Then, I opened a gift from myself… to myself. This may sound strange to some of you, but for me, it was a little symbol of self love — after so many years treating myself harshly and those around me with love. It was time for me to receive love from myself too!
This year I will do something similar, and also maybe pull out an Oracle Card or two. Having some quiet time like this, amongst what can be a chaotic day with family and friends, is also a lovely way to connect back to your center and spiritual self.
If having your own little ritual resonates, take some time think about what feels right for you and create your own for this Christmas. It doesn’t have to be anything elaborate, just something that feels symbolically like something you may like to do for yourself.
6. Dealing with The Passage of Time
When you have been ill for some time, occasions such as Christmas can mark the passage of time. For people well on their way to recovery, this passage of time can lead to smiles and celebrations as they notice their progress. But if you are still very much in the middle of your experience with ME/CFS, or are in the midst of a setback, a feeling of panic may wash over you as ‘yet another’ Christmas is upon you.
I know for me personally, Christmas approaching can be tough for this very reason. My mind naturally wants to compare myself to how I was X amount of years ago and say, “Oh but Emma, you are physically worse now than you were then…” (followed by a spiral of “I’m never going to get better” thoughts).
It doesn’t take a genius to see this way of thinking isn’t useful. If you find yourself doing this, (which if you are human and not feeling too good, you probably will!) gently remind yourself, again, that Christmas is just a day! Lots of things will have affected where you are at in your recovery so far, and I know for me, reminding myself of that actually brings some comfort.
I know there is a lot of talk around gratitude at the moment. But it really is important.
Sometimes, when we are feeling like things can’t get any worse, the thought of being “grateful” can actually make you feel cross and angry and like the last thing on earth you want to be doing in that moment. But actually, taking a few deep breaths, and reminding yourself of some things in your life that you feel you a truly thankful for, can help you feel calmer and more at peace. There will be many things that you have in your life, that others can only dream of having. Notice some of the things you do have in your life.
8. Be present
Allow Christmas Day to unfold exactly as it needs to. As Echart Tolle would say, all we have is this moment. Let each moment be exactly as it needs to be and throughout the day, especially during moments where you find yourself getting stressed or worked up, take a moment, and bring yourself calmly back to your breath.
Remind yourself also, that a brand new year is just around the corner. With much brand new hope and so many possibilities.
Don’t forget this.
Wishing you all a really peaceful Christmas.
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