Map of London Underground

For many people living with anxiety, using public transport like crowded subways and undergrounds can be difficult. On Wednesday, Transport for London (TfL), London’s transportation department, released a new map of the London Underground designed to help those living with claustrophobia or anxiety.

The new map specifies which sections and stations of the Tube are underground and highlights routes customers can use to avoid them. More than half of the Tube’s 270 stations are above ground with only the Victoria Line and Waterloo and City line wholly underground. Up until now, there was no definitive way to tell which stations were completely enclosed unless you were familiar with the underground network.

“Making the Tube network accessible for everyone is one of our top priorities,” TfL director of customer strategy Mark Evers told The Telegraph. “This new map is just one of the tools we have created in response to feedback from our customers on how we can make the transport network more accessible, making traveling easier and more comfortable for all our customers.”

“This new map is an excellent resource for those wishing to avoid journeys where there are tunnels; serving as a great pre-journey planning aid and increasing access to public transport,” Nicky Lidbetter, Anxiety UK’s‘s chief executive, added in a statement.

The map follows other TfL initiatives designed to improve the Tube’s accessibility such as badges for expectant mothers and those with hidden health conditions who would benefit from sitting down during their commute.

The Mighty has reached out to Transport for London for a comment and has yet to hear back.

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As a preschooler, people would always comment about how caring and concerned with others my daughter was. She was constantly praised and applauded for her care, for how well she shared, waited her turn and never got angry with anyone. At first, we (naively) prided ourselves for raising her to be so well behaved and kind, as if we were some sort of parenting rock stars. As she got older, there began to be signs that there was more going on than just an expertly raised child. By second grade she was laying in bed night after night for hours, unable to stop the spin of worries for other people: what did they think or feel, did they like her or not, did she upset someone that day, how could she get through the day without hurting anyone’s feelings. The thought of navigating the next school day sent her into a panic. Some nights she would pass out at 1 a.m. from sheer exhaustion, and other nights the worries would become so enormous that she would be physically ill.

My husband was the first one brave enough to say it out loud: maybe it was time to take her to a therapist. I was floored by his ludicrous suggestion. I was her mother, I knew how to take care of her, she did not need to talk to a stranger, he was being irrational for suggesting it. What would that look like for her? Would it make her feel weird or broken or sick? My husband felt very strongly about it, as he struggled with pretty debilitating anxiety, but when I looked at him and her they were so different there was no way she had anxiety. However, the more I watched what she was going through, the more I realized I could not relate to her. I was in over my head. I did not know how to fix her.

She began therapy, and so did I. I needed to face the insecurity that I did not know how to help my baby, and she needed to learn how to manage her worries and cope with the overwhelming feelings she has. Between my therapist and hers, we began a pretty in-depth education on anxiety, what it is and what it isn’t, what to say and how to react, when to engage and disengage. At first, it felt like every single thing I was doing intuitively was dead wrong — the very first one being the phrase, “Don’t be silly.” I had never considered the gravity of what that statement communicates to a very scared, very anxious 9-year-old. When I finally thought it through, my heart sank; how could I essentially tell her that she is silly for how she feels, that something is wrong with her, that she’s the odd one out. No wonder she was making herself sick! Here I was thinking I was doing everything right by my kids and I was constantly putting her down, without even realizing it.

So, I began to examine all of the things we tell our children when they seek our support and validation, and I learned to choose my words very wisely. At this point, it has become ingrained in me to make sure that before I say anything, I validate that her feelings are OK, then I begin to tiptoe through the maze of guiding her to think about what she is worried about and decide for herself what worries are real and what worries are not. It is way too often the opposite when we speak to children; as fixers, we rush to decide for them what is worthy of their concern. But in fact learning how to sort through that on their own is a vital life skill for every man, woman and child on this planet — not just the anxious ones.

The hardest tool I had to learn is when to disengage from the conversation because as a parent you don’t ever want to shut down a child who is hurting and desperate for you to fix it. The thing is this: you cannot fix it. No matter how hard you try, this is in them — the only option is to learn how to manage it and be a source of unwavering support. With my daughter, there is usually something that starts the spin. As it progresses, the fears get bigger and bigger and spiral out of control, leaving her desperate for me to make promises I could never possibly fulfill. There is a lot of “Promise me you will never die.” Obviously, as much as I wish I could, I cannot in good faith promise her that, so I try to bring her back into the present, and focus on enjoying life as it is right now because the future is not in our control.

In the moments when she falls deep into despair and hopelessness, we have had a lot of success by making her write down three things she was grateful for that day. She keeps them in a jar so we can go back and remember that no matter how scary things feel, there is always good to be found. This is a tool I now use with all of my kids and myself too, because really, who can’t benefit from what we call “grateful notes?”

There are so many lessons I have learned so far on this very emotional, very humbling journey. A big one for me was that there is no shame in asking for help, that there is always something you can learn to do better and its important to be grateful for all the amazing things around you. But by far the biggest takeaway is that the words and reactions we give to our children are more important than the clothes we buy them, than the play dates we set up, than the homework we prioritize. Just listen closely to what they are actually asking — the real need isn’t always on the surface. Sometimes its a plea for validation, for you to affirm that they are “normal,” that things will be OK and that they have your support when they need it.

I look at the tremendous progress my daughter is making; she is learning to embrace her uniqueness and to see her extreme empathy as a superpower in making other people feel comfortable to be themselves. I know there will be peaks and valleys and her anxiety will never fully go away, but I am finally prepared to be a light in the darkness for her, forever willing to remind her how perfectly wonderful and enough she is.

Editor’s note: This story has been published with permission from the author’s daughter.

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Lately, I’ve been working pretty hard on gratitude. As an agoraphobic, incredibly anxious mum to an adorable two-year-old, the idea of gratitude is often something I both overlook and scoff at. Grateful? Yeah, sure — I’m grateful I’ve had four hours sleep, spent three years housebound, my hair is going grey before I’m 30 and my living room floor looks like it’s carpeted but really it’s just a lot of dust and pet hair that I “forget” to vacuum on a regular basis. I’m super, duper grateful! Anyway, I finally realized that this constant state of frustration was not only a shit place to be but not in any way helpful to me or my family. So, I decided to spend a couple of minutes every day writing a list of all the things I’m grateful for, in the hope I’ll realize my life is actually pretty damn good. You know, despite the floor fluff and the gray hairs. And four months in, there is something a little bit surprising that frequently comes up on my gratitude list.

I am grateful for my anxiety.

Two years ago, if you’d asked me to affirm that I was grateful for my anxiety, I would’ve done it; I’m a pushover like that, but in no way would I have really believed it. Anxiety robbed me of my life as I knew it; anxiety kept me locked inside my house, inside my head, kept me from enjoying my days, instead spending them fearful and teary, wondering where in the hell I had gone wrong. It is like that for so many people with anxiety. But at the end of every day, when I write my little list of things I’m grateful for, I often find myself writing that I am grateful for my struggles, grateful for the fear and the shakes and the nervousness and the sick feeling that I get in the pit of my stomach sometimes, and grateful I am where I am today — not in spite of my anxiety, but because of my anxiety.

Maybe it’s that I’m taking my power back. Or maybe I’ve just come to realize that the last four years haven’t been a blip, but an eye-opening journey. The thing is, I don’t want to change myself anymore. Sure, I want to improve, but not because I dislike who or where I am right now. I’m not angry at my anxiety anymore. I’m not afraid of it, because — and there’s a bit of a paradox here — I am not my anxiety, but my anxiety is me.

You might not have control just yet over what your anxiety does to you, but you can have control over what you do to your anxiety. Are you constantly cursing your anxiety? Are you running from it? Are you pretending it’s not there? Or do you just absolutely hate on it with every single fiber of your being? You probably answered yes to one or many of those questions, and I get it. I do. It’s really hard to feel positive about something that gets in the way of you doing your thing and enjoying life to the fullest. But remember the paradox I mentioned above? Your anxiety is you. You can’t run from yourself, you can’t pretend you aren’t there, you can hate and curse yourself but it sure doesn’t feel good to do so. Yeah, when you feel an anxiety attack coming on, it’s so frustrating that your body is reacting in the “wrong” way. But the important thing to remember is that your body is doing this to protect you. The danger gauge is off, but the good intentions were there.

Why not try giving your body some credit for looking out for your best interests, however misguided — so that instead of this internal conversation:

Anxiety: Hey! We’re in danger!
You: Are you sure?
Anxiety: Pretty sure!
You: I don’t think we are, but… well, now I’m freaking out a bit.
Anxiety: Me too! I think something bad is going to happen!
You: Why do you always overreact? Now I feel nervous and weird and I hate feeling so anxious… oh god, I think I’m going to throw up.
Anxiety: Told you we were in trouble! Sound the alarm!

You have this internal conversation:

Anxiety: Hey! We’re in danger!
You: Are you sure?
Anxiety: Pretty sure!
You: I don’t think we are. But I appreciate that you’re looking out for me all the same. You do your thing and I’ll just keep doing mine.
Anxiety: Oh. I was just trying to protect you. From… you know… the dangers…
You: I know.
Anxiety: Yep.
You: Thanks though.
Anxiety: I gotchu girl.

A much better internal dialogue, am I right?

The next time you start to feel anxious, I want you to do the following things:

1. Acknowledge Your Anxiety.

Before you do anything else, you need to just identify with how you’re feeling. For example, when I was at the very beginning of my exposure sessions, I would be thinking “I don’t want to feel anxious… I don’t want to feel anxious,” instead of just saying “I feel anxious.” So instead, simply notice how you are feeling, and acknowledge those thoughts.

2. Accept Your Anxiety.

Remember what your anxiety is: a response your body is making to a perceived threat. It isn’t an external force or person, it is you. Accept how it feels – is it only in certain parts of your body, or is it all encompassing? Is it consistent? Rising? Coming in waves? Affirm that however your body is feeling right now is OK. You don’t need to fight it or change it at this present time.

3. Appreciate Your Anxiety.

Say thank you to your body for looking out for you. Treat your anxiety like a super shy and really loveable child. How would you react if your kid came and showed you an incredibly adorable-in-only-the-way-kid’s-drawings-can-be piece of artwork that said “I luv u mum,” that they’d done it with your favorite, most expensive lipstick? You wouldn’t tell them they’re useless and that they ruin everything – you’d say “Thank you! That’s so good!” It’s the same with your anxiety. Treat it like a small child with the best intentions. Don’t constantly bring it down and hate it for existing. Show it love, show it care and appreciate it for being there.

And if you really want to go the whole way and treat your anxious self like a damn queen instead of some kind of exile, go ahead and write a list of all the reasons your anxiety has actually made you a stronger person. For example:

1. You face your fears every day.

2. You know what it means to be truly afraid, but try again and again anyway.

3. You have more empathy for others.

4. You have a deeper understanding of yourself.

5. You have a better connection with your family or friends.

6. You appreciate the simple things, like going for a walk in the sunshine.

7. You are on more of a journey of discovery than ever before.

Then write a list of all the things you can do to honor yourself and your anxiety. How can you strengthen your relationship with yourself so that you don’t always feel as if your anxiety is controlling you, instead of the other way around? My list looked a bit like this:

1. Practice yoga every day.

2. Meditate every day.

3. Eat foods that don’t irritate my gut.

4. Learn to relax – take a nap if I need to.

5. Read books that inspire me.

6. Be present instead of always zoning out on my phone.

7. Smile at myself more.

8. Let my body feel the way it wants to. (The other day I had some weird nervous energy happening and instead of mindlessly watching something on my laptop while anxiously ruminating about everything, I actually danced around the lounge room like a possessed woman because I obviously just needed to express some shit. It was weird and wonderful. Sorry if you are my neighbors.)

The next time you’re feeling anxious, try to give yourself a mental high-five instead of a face-palm and see what happens.

Follow this journey on the author’s blog.

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I have been running for years.

I have been hiding for years.

I have sought comfort in a universe that is known only to me.

I have lost myself to it more times than I could count, and absolutely more times than I would ever admit to anyone — even those who I know are in the same personal marathon I am going through.

I have lost seconds, minutes, even entire days running from it — quickly darting to my safe spot before it consumes me. The heavy cloak of it dropping on my shoulders and tying around my neck as I desperately scramble to be freed from the restraints it has had me shackled in for what feels like my entire life.

There are people who seek out silence; people who want to escape to a quiet, dark place to be alone with their thoughts. That place is pure hell for me.

I take great effort in avoiding that place, scrambling for noise in every moment of my day. I don’t want to be forced into silence to sit with only my thoughts. I don’t want to be consumed by the emotions that grotesquely ravage my soul.

I have been in a mental marathon with anxiety for as long as I can remember, and like any good race sometimes the person in first place — me — has an obvious lead only to have the person in second place, my anxiety, find a way to sprint ahead and lead the charge.

I have used writing as my coping mechanism since I was a young bullied teenager. Writing is my safe spot. I always compare the blinking cursor in a blank document to the wagging tail of a dog, quickly moving as it waits for me to give it attention. I can take charge with what I write. I can write myself into another character that allows me to lose myself, and my anxious thoughts, for as long as I need to at any given time.

Writing and freeing myself through words helps ease the anxiety, but I know that bastard is always right at my heels, just waiting for me to slip up or lose stamina. Once it gains the lead, it passes the baton off to depression. You want to see fast? Watch how quickly anxiety and depression work together as a team. They fuel each other as I try to maintain the momentum to keep up to them, hoping that at any given time I’ll be able to usurp the baton that is my life back and propel forwards.

Sometimes I do get the baton, and it is glorious. I feel triumphant. It’s a grand feat when you fight your inner darkness and win. I celebrate the victories, no matter how long they last, because it’s a reminder that life isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon. I will be doing this intricate dance with myself for probably the rest of my life.

I keep hearing that I’m in control. I am the one in charge and I have the ability to take lead in this back and forth tug of war dance. Maybe dance is too pretty of a word. The fight is ungainly. There is no grace or elegance. It’s a hurricane of fighting a flurry of my own negative thoughts and self-doubts. It’s a tsunami that overpowers every part of me at moments.

Being left alone with my own thoughts creates a snowball effect. It starts with one stupid thought that continually gains speed as it races along. Before I know it that single, simple thought somehow ends up with me reliving an embarrassing moment from 14 years ago with details so vivid you would swear it had happened that day.

I think the healthy thing to do would probably be to sit down in silence and confront those thoughts. Let the snowballs keep rolling until they are boulder-shaped orbs acting as a barrier in my mind. I’m not strong enough for that yet. I hope that someday I will be strong enough.

One day I’ll be able to shower without having to put music on or a movie on my laptop that I bring into the bathroom with me. Until that day comes where we have a final dance off to see once and for all who takes the lead, I will continue to run. I will continue to use my words and emotions as energy, fueling my body forward. I want that baton. I want that finish line with a victory where I left my opponents tasting defeat. I want this to be the epic race I’ll remind myself of when I feel down. I want to look back when I am having a bad day and remember this marathon where I pushed myself through every hurdle life threw my way; exhausted and drained I’ll remember slamming my feet against the proverbial ground and how, despite the odds, I managed to squeeze out a win, as marginal as it may have been. The baton will sit in an enclosed box in my brain on display for when anxiety and depression challenge me to a rematch. It will serve as a reminder that I beat you once against the odds and I can do it again. Just watch me.

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I almost didn’t write this article. Many with anxiety know that when you have a task looming over your head, it can become so completely overwhelming that the thought of attempting it becomes something you want to run away from. Waves of anxiety can come and go. There are good days and bad days, and sometimes bad weeks. And being a woman, and a fairly new mother on top of it, there are several other factors added to the symptoms. When hormones are unbalanced and sleep is inadequate, it becomes very difficult to catch yourself and reverse the dark thoughts that can seem to take over.

In 2016, actress Kristen Bell spoke out during an interview about her struggles with anxiety and depression, and I found it incredibly inspirational.

I already loved her work and personality, but now she’s my new hero. Somehow, it can be so comforting to be able to identify with a celebrity on such a grave, personal issue. She mentioned how she was always trying to please her peers, changing and molding herself to appease her friends. That may sound like an “average” teenager trying to fit in and work through self-esteem issues, but there is another level to it; having anxiety as a teenager, and not knowing you experience it, it just seems you are a constant worrier. Always worrying about whether or not someone likes you, constantly being in your own head, continuously reliving and over-evaluating everything you said and did in public throughout the day and being stressed out over whether or not it was viewed properly is utterly exhausting. And it’s not the norm. Something Bell said hit very close to home to me. “When I was 18, my mother sat me down and said ‘there is a serotonin imbalance in our family line. If you start to feel like you are twisting things around you, and you feel like there is no sunlight around you and you are paralyzed [sic] with fear, this is what it is.’”

My story is very similar. When I was about 20, my mother began discussing her anxiety with me. It was right about the age where you start noticing similar characteristics to your parents more and more. It was an eye-opening conversation, to say the least. All the constant worry and stress I experienced as a child, all the sinking moments of depression, not being able to talk myself out of absurd fears and emotions, all of it. Suddenly I realized I wasn’t defective, I wasn’t “crazy” — I was just like my mom, and I was going to be OK. From then on, I became more aware of these symptoms. Things got a lot easier. I likened it to those times when you’re in the middle of a nightmare, but suddenly in the dream realize it’s a dream, and you have the power to manipulate the situations within that dream. I felt miraculously in control of my life for the first time. I felt empowered. But the stresses of life can take all of that away. This last week was one of those times.

After having a child, everything changes. Your body, your mind, your hormones, the amount of stresses due to having various new bills and new, foreign goals and responsibilities. I am also a business owner, and learning the struggles of making things run efficiently can be very rewarding but simultaneously frightening. There’s the constant threat of forgetting something, screwing up paperwork, pissing off a client, ruining your reputation. There’s a constant fear of making sure you take care of your employees and get them what they need while making sure they accomplish tasks you have promised to customers.

For the last week, I haven’t slept. It’s a very busy time of year for us at our business, and between that and “mom hormones,” I hit a breaking point. I never knew for sure if I’d ever had a real panic attack before, but I know now that they are real and present in my life. I spent the last week with shortness of breath, constantly checking my phone, re-reading texts and emails, making to-do lists, feeling overwhelmed. And one thing someone with anxiety can tell you is that just because you are stressed out about not having accomplished your duties does not mean you are capable of jumping up and getting them finished. Oh, no. They instantaneously become huge and towering and scary. There are too many to focus on. You become overwhelmed and you sit on the couch and retreat into your mind where you stare helplessly around the room at your multitude of chores with quiet frenzy. You beat yourself up for being “imperfect, lazy, fat and stupid.” You avoid the things that scare you. You try to sleep, but that doesn’t work.

I spent three nights in a row, waking up every 1-2 hours, sometimes from a nightmare about struggling at work, or sometimes from no dream at all, but being unable to breathe. Immediately I was attacked by 13 thoughts at a time: “You need to go grocery shopping but you don’t have time;” “You have forgotten to fill out those forms for three days in a row;” “Why haven’t you done laundry yet, your son is running out of clean pants, you’re a terrible mother;” “You never called that woman back, she’s going to be angry, you’ve failed.” It’s as if there is a court jury in my mind, each juror yelling at me, all at the same time. I can’t shut off my brain, I can’t breathe, I want to cry and I can’t go back to sleep. To a “normal” person, they might realize there’s nothing that can be done about any of these issues at 2 a.m., but not to the anxious mind. For three nights in a row, it was like that. The anxiety chased me from night to day, night to day, and I was finding it hard to focus. When you are worried about being constructive at work, but your lack of sleep robs you of the ability to be constructive, it is truly a vicious cycle.

Then just like that, like Keyser Söze in “The Usual Suspects,” the monster is gone.

You start to have good days again. The experiences of the last few days seem silly and ridiculous. Why is it sometimes so impossible to talk ourselves out of these episodes? Sometimes I can and other times it’s a trap, a black hole. Kristen Bell has some great advice for those of us who struggle daily and don’t want to admit it. Many of us don’t want to face it or deal with it. But there’s nothing wrong with admitting that life can be better and we don’t need to be embarrassed to talk to someone about it. Bell said in her interview, “I got a prescription when I was really young and I still take it today and I have no shame in that because my mom had said to me, ‘If you start to feel this way, talk to your doctor, talk to a psychologist, see how you want to help yourself.’ If you do decide to go on a prescription to help yourself, understand that the world wants to shame you for that, but in the medical community, you would never deny a diabetic his insulin.”

Recognize symptoms of a panic attack and seek help from a professional in the best way you feel comfortable:

Shortness of breath or hyperventilation; Heart palpitations or a racing heart; Chest pain or discomfort; Trembling or shaking; Choking feeling; Feeling unreal or detached from your surroundings; Sweating; Nausea or upset stomach; Feeling dizzy, light-headed, or faint; Numbness or tingling sensations; Hot or cold flashes; Fear of dying, losing control, or “going crazy” (via helpguide.org)

If you are struggling and can’t keep your mind in check, don’t be ashamed and don’t think you have to do it alone.

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For many, anxiety is the “acceptable” face of mental health. We can say we have anxiety and others hear us saying we’re stressed. Lots of us assume we know what anxiety looks like; we imagine our own stressful lives and magnify that by the power of x. I always thought about anxiety in terms of panic attacks, uncontrollable emotions and physical signs such as sweating or nail biting. Little did I know, my anxiety would present itself in a totally different way.

The bathroom floor is not my chosen venue for an evening, or an entire night, but when my anxiety struck it’s where I’d find myself by default. During my second year of university I found it impossible to stay away from home, alter my sleeping patterns or cope with any situation where I felt like I wasn’t in control. Despite feeling fine, my body had other ideas. I could live my life during the day, but the moment I tried to sleep I’d find myself plagued with nausea and running for the bathroom. The first time it happened — feeling miserable and alone, in the early hours of the morning and in a bed/bathroom not my own — I assumed I had an upset stomach. What else would bring on persistent vomiting?

After a few months of this I finally sought medical help with a doctor who was confused by my symptoms when blood tests seemed to indicate no stomach problems. It was only during an intermittent appointment with my psychologist when I mentioned how my physical health was getting me down that I got my answer. The feeling of relief to finally understand what was going on in my body was indescribable. I was freed from the fear each night that I would be unable to sleep with only nausea as my companion. Better still, knowing my anxiety was causing the symptoms meant I could be prescribed medication to end the cycle. (While I appreciate medication is not for everyone this felt like the right choice for me.)

Thinking back, hindsight is a great thing, sometimes I can pinpoint what was causing my anxiety to rear its ugly head; other times still remain a mystery. At the end of the day it no longer matters to me. Feeling in control of my body once more is a tremendous gift. Now I can recognize these physical symptoms for what they are, and more importantly I know how to deal with them. I can soothe myself armed with the knowledge that stress has triggered my flight-or-fight response, usually reserved for a confrontation with a grizzly bear rather than a looming deadline, causing me to feel nauseated as my body seeks to empty itself in preparation for “flight.” Having a rational explanation for my symptoms rather than allowing my mind to wander is an immeasurable comfort.

And now? Now I’m taking it one day at a time. I still get stressed, and sometimes my anxiety is worse, but being able to name that feeling has given me back my power. What frustrates me the most is the pain I endured for months with doctors who never considered my past history of anxiety and depression as possibly affecting my physical health. Perhaps that is why I’m writing. I urge you to never dismiss symptoms or accept that a medical professional doesn’t have an answer. If your body is telling you something, we have a duty to ourselves to understand the message. Not all mental health problems exhibit in the same way, all our experiences are unique, and we deserve for our entire health history to be considered, not just the physical.

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