What Happened When Someone Told My Employer I Was on 'Heavy Antipsychotics'


Today the manager of my daycare pulled me aside to talk to me about a note that was left in her mailbox. She explained that someone, most likely a parent, left a note that stated I was on “heavy antipsychotics.” My mental health is no secret, as I am a well-known advocate in my community on mental health, most recently appearing on the cover of a local magazine discussing the importance of mental health awareness. My struggle with borderline personality disorder (BPD) is not something I hide, and it is certainly not a dirty little secret I am ashamed of.

I am stunned that someone would take my advocacy and attempt to use it against me in the hopes I would be terminated from my job.

In addition, the person exaggerated what was said in one of my interviews by reporting I was on “heavy antipsychotics,” which is simply untrue. I have openly said I have been prescribed antipsychotics in the past, but it in no way has ever interfered with my performance at work or my daily life. This person’s attempt to shame me and have me terminated from my workplace for my mental health is a crime. There are anti-discrimination laws in place that prevent those struggling with mental illness from being terminated from their workplace.

This person’s actions were malicious and cruel. Not only that, but it felt like a blow to the entire mental health community. It felt like a stab at anyone who has ever struggled because of a mental illness. It because of incidents like these that many struggle in silence. Incidents like these are the reason so many are too afraid to seek help.

But I have to say this: This person reminded me of the reasons I stand up for those who feel they do not have a voice. They reminded me of why I find strength to share my story, knowing I will face judgment from people who don’t understand. This person reminded me I find the need to educate the public on mental health.

While this person may have wanted to humiliate me, they have not. This incident made me feel empowered and motivated to further my advocacy. I stand strong with the mental health community and will always choose to stand for them. I will not be silenced.

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