So frusterated with my current circumstances as a bpd/panic disorder parent in my city. Tired of the violence and hate crimes that we have been subjected to. These adolescents and teenagers here have no ability to fuck off and leave us the hell alone. We've moved 4-5 times yet fixed nothing. Bullying and violonce or threats of more violence always coming. Unable to sleep or think or relax ruminating over the violent ppl we have encountered already while fearing those We've yet been forced to endure. Single-ish mom of 3 who only wants to have peaceful existence andhave our basic human rights upheld.Seems like there is no escape from bad people, ignorant uneducated people, complete assholes. Never free to be ourselves without harm being done to us. Sick of gang bullshit, bullies and scum. Getting pissed the fuck off to obsessed levels of about 2 lose it. Somedays I cant even escape the last few incidents because they are on a loop in my head. 2 escape my head and be in reality is no better because now I'm obsessing over violence yet 2 happen. I hate people so much. I miss living and being safer than we are. #Cruelty #dehumanized #helpless