Recently I've felt like I'm falling down the rabbit hole and constantly giving into the depression feelings and voice that says "just snooze the alarm, just keep snoozing, untill you've missed the bus and the train so that you start to panic about being mega late for work then if you go you will have to stay till 8 or 9, so just don't go, you are safe in your house where all is familiar." Not Today. I snoozed once then sat upright. And for me, THAT was the exact moment it shifted. There was no going back from that, I was up (almost). I am bloody proud of me today. I've done it. I am under no illusions that it will be the same come Monday. Everyday is different, as you well know. But today I am having this. I will take this as a win today and I will sit with it for as long as it makes me feel proud and happy and smile. Slowly the small wins might be able to build into something more. Eventually. #bedbattle #Anxiety #smallwins #iamproudofme #satup #smilingtoday