When I make mistakes, I hate myself.
When I let people down, I hate myself.
When I’m chosen last, I hate myself.

What is wrong with me?
Why do I have to be a recovering alcoholic?(yrs of sobriety)
Why do I have to be schizo-effective bipolar type?
Am I really sick or just a failure?

Why has God put me here to suffer?
I just bring everybody down!
I do no good, so why am I still here?

How do I go another day?
how do I get through this?
When all the bad thoughts keep creeping in. I feel like there’s to many leaks in my boat.
I’m drowning… I can’t seal these cracks alone, yet, I’m all alone, no one to help.

#allalone #isitdepression #doeslifejustsuck