I was diagnosed with depression on July 2nd of this summer. I had been doing good for a while I guess, but towards the end of July and about a week ago I started to write another “goodbye” letter. I am not sure if it just me venting or if they are actually gonna be used for real one day. I don’t feel like I would do anything like that, but the fact that I’m writing these letters make me wonder if it’s possible I would. I hope to God that they aren’t true, but when I write them it feels so real.

I told one of my Coaches that I am close with, mainly because I wrote a “goodbye” letter and poem to him, and wanted to share them with him because I am tired of feeling broken, and was up for talking.

I’m not sure if I should try to find the extra strength I need in God first, or if I should talk with my Ma and Dad and go back to the hospital and get my medication dosage highered. I want to find strength in God as I have so many times, but at the same time I really want to stop feeling broken.

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