Reaching out to the community
Hi, I have BPD, anxiety and PTSD. I find myself feeling backed into a corner and haven't where to turn. I was recently in crisis and reached out to my parents. It should be noted that I have had 2 other instances where I was suicidal and called my parents. The 1st time I received no response and the second I was hung up on and I called the police to take me to the hospital. This time wasn't much different. We did get into an argument via text, but once again, I, alone, had to deal with my crisis. The next day my mother new where I was but did not attempt to contact me. 4 days later while I was sitting in my car, calm and clearly not in crisis, my parents held me against my will; injured me, and threatened me because I refused to go to a facility that does not treat BPD. The police were called and ultimately, they could not hold me. The next day a petition was filed to have me involuntary committed and the sheriff's dept and my parents have been searching for me ever since. I am terrified of the police since my last few encounters with them have been, let's say traumatizing. And I'm afraid to be around my parents because I don't want to go through another traumatic experience like our last one. I'm afraid to go anywhere! I'm afraid that no one will listen to me! Im being portrayed that I'm out of control and they are parents if the year. I openly admit I need counseling, but it's difficult when the only place you can afford tells you they dont treat personality disorders and I'll be treated for bipolar instead. I'm homeless right now because of them. They turned my daughter against me and that's where I was staying most of the time and I don't have friends I can stay with. All of this stress is taking a physical toll on my health and I feel helpless. I welcome any and all suggestions and/or advise. Thank you for reading and God bless! #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #forcedtreatment #powerless #Anxiety