Wishing for an 'On and Off Switch' for My Grief
I wish there was an “on and off switch” for grief. Perhaps, a master switch to simply shut it all down. If not, I would like to simply short-circuit it when the triggers hit.
Grief is rude, it’s impolite.
Grief is not convenient.
Grief has no manners.
Grief is like a bull in a china shop.
Grief is brash.
Grief is brazen and impertinent.
Grief is cruel.
Grief is vindictive.
Grief is malevolent.
Grief does not respect boundaries.
Grief does not comprehend its surroundings.
Grief is ill-natured.
Grief has no remorse.
Grief is a thief.
Grief is a destroyer.
Grief is spiteful.
Grief is unsightly.
Grief is unkind.
Grief in rancorous.
Grief is untimely.
Grief is an enemy and its best friend is death.
“The tragedy of life is not death but what we let die inside of us while we live.” ― Norman Cousins
Yes, I would very much like to have a switch I could flip.
But grief cannot…will not…be controlled. It appears on the scene when I least expect it, unapologetically. It does not care if I am driving somewhere in the midst of traffic; it does not care if I’m standing in line in a crowded store; it does not care if I’m sitting in a restaurant attempting to enjoy a meal with friends; it does not care if I’m trying to worship God in a Church. It creeps in, or outright hits me over the head with a baseball bat. It whispers in my ear, or screams over a megaphone. It can be an irritating fly I want to swat, or a roaring lion looking to devour me. I hate grief! I wait patiently for it to be destroyed.
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I am the Author of ‘Gifts from the Ashes’. Here is a Review/Summary of my book to assist: An honest and straightforward auto-biography which includes a Bereaved Mom’s personal Testimony, 183 Topics, Scriptures of Comfort, and her deceased son’s poems. It offers Hope and Redemption to others on this journey of Grief. It is approximately 370 pages with a beautiful design and internal layout. It can also be utilized in group discussions easily because of the manner in which the Topics are presented. The Author has been a Pastor’s wife, a counselor at a treatment center in a hospital, a counselor at a private clinic, has worked numerous hotlines and at shelters for the abused, sat on the board of a major city rape crisis center for 3 yrs., had designed her own program on shame-reduction which she taught at a women’s center, facilitated many groups, raised 4 natural born children along with an adopted child and a foster child, has had 4 pregnancy losses, and was barren for 7 yrs. while being told by doctors that she could not have children. It’s a remarkable story of Hope & Redemption. She became an ordained minister 2/06. She currently operates an on line informative and supportive group for bereaved parents and continues to write new topics on WordPress. This is her 1st book. She intends to publish a 2nd in the future focused on a 24 yr. abusive marriage. I highly recommend it. Articles on WordPress.com: https://wordpress.com/posts/bereavedparentsblog.wordpress.com. I am the author of all articles and using them, or any portion of them, without my written permission is against copyright law. Registration# TX 8-383-134
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