I just don’t want to deal with my constant thoughts and constant fucking train wreck of feelings. Everything is fucking stupid. I don’t understand why I have tk through this when I didn’t ask to be born. I didn’t ask to be here. And now I have to live my life being fucked yo constantly? That’s bullshit. And I’m over it
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #hateeverything #stupid
I just hung out with this guy and the entire time I felt like I wasn’t there. I had to pinch myself several times to bring myself back. Even with the sex it was just uncomfortable and terrible honestly . But I was able to be brought back to reality and I was able to feel somthing other than feeling like I literally don’t exists. Like I’m not my own if that makes sense? Idk what do you guys think. I’m being positive. Also I’m really fucking triggered bc my friends just told me their having a baby and I’m sad because I wanted to be with my ex, and I really did want a family with him, but ofc I was too much. So it sad ugh. I’m all over the place I hate this.
#BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #numb #hypersexual #hateeverything
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