idontfeelgood

Soo, here it is...this is the first time on a long time i've been this depressed....to the point I'm sick...stomach problems...I haven't eaten well in almost two days...I have no friends in this area, barely hear from my family and so called friends at home...all i do is work, come home, and imbibe....I miss being social..my s/o is extremely introverted and doesn't realize I'm suffering, or pushes it to his mental rolodex file WAYYY in the back...my customers love me, but sometimes I feel I'm faking the funk with them,and that's not ok...and soo tired....I work early and sleep the majority of the day...it's easy to suggest to someone that they should invest in a hobby, but when your motivation is low, there's no such thing...excuse me while i get in the bed now...hope everything is well with eveyone.... #imsootired #idontfeelgood #depressionsucks

Been off meds for five years. I used alcohol to ease the anxiety. I finally said that’s enough and stopped. now I am expiencing the worst anxiety and panic attacks of my life. I am going to see my doctor this week.