I don't know how to feel anymore. Had a bad fight with my youngest child pay week and all I can do is feel bad. She's 24 and very mean/toxic to me. I left her dad when she was 2. He was physically and emotionally abusive. All I can see in her now is him. Same rage, same hatred towards me. Veggie leaving she said she wishes I die alone in a mental hospital. I've been trying to let it go and think of all the reasons why in a good person. But, it isn't easy. It hurts like hell. Honestly, makes me wish I was dead. I didn't every want to be in this kind of situation with any of my kids. Last night she messaged me to tell me I am nothing to her. What do I do? Other than cry?