I just turned 21 and had to be dragged out to go “out” for my birthday. Lmao. I find myself quite pathetic anymore. I have a hard time telling myself to get out of bed to do anything. If it wasn’t for my four legged companions I wouldn’t get out of bed anymore. I’d also like to thank my medications for making me gain over 40 pounds in the last year. “You’re weight isn’t everything” but isn’t it? When’s the last time you actually looked in the mirror and didn’t want to change something about yourself I looked in the mirror today after I got a shower and literally vomited at the sight of myself. So I’m pretty much fed up with this whole fake reality where everything will be “okay”. #WhatIsSelfLove #Insecure