My headed is clouded , my mind races as depression and anxiety sleeps through every part of my well being . I feel like releasing all my depression into my veins , I feel like opening my veins and watching blood pour on the floor as I grasp for my last breathe. I feel as if the earth shakes beneath me as if I’m meant to fall through. My mind races miles a minute with no escape of this twisted reality . Is this a safe place , is this what life is really meant to be . Am I meant to let go , am I meant to give up and forget I even existed. I believe in god and I believe he’s not the cause of this , I know he’s not , the devil wants to take my life and I can’t allow him to do that . I can’t allow the walls to come crumbling down I know I have two feet to stand in and empowerment I’ve never seen in anything else . I know I can move mountains with my story . After 5 years of running from the same person and still facing it today it’s not easy, running for my life , he kicks my door in puts a knife to my throat and holds me in front of a mirror , he tells me to watch as he has the knife to my throat with his hand on my forehead , I can’t escape , my heart didn’t race once I smiled and told him to do it . I prayed that day god saved me . God is faithful and even thought I feel as if tonight may be my last I know my battle isn’t over yet . I know I’m strong as strong as all of you . - Ally’s thoughts- #Allysthoughts #Thesimplethings #Lifewasntmadetobeeasy #dontgiveup #Dontgivein