You Cannot Excuse Abuse Because I Have a Mental Illness

You say you understand, but you give me shifty eyes when I see my doctor.

And when you come to my appointments you say he’s a quack, and ask me to stop going unless I’m scoring some meds for you to abuse.

You say you understand and that you won’t call me crazy.

You know how much it hurts me but still, you hit me, and say it’s my fault because I’m “psycho” and “insane.”

You say you understand, but you get mad when I cry. And instead of calling for help you call me fat, lazy and tell me how much I let you down.

You say you understand, but when I cut, you don’t call an ambulance.

Instead you tell me I’m ugly, that I’m a coward.

You say you understand, but you won’t talk to my parents. I guess for you it’s easier to cheat and lie and to ignore my “problem” because you say you’re sane.

You say you understand, but you take advantage of me.

Instead of doing the right thing and leave, you take control and abuse your power over me.

You say you understand…

But you don’t. And it’s just as simple as that.

You cannot excuse abuse because I have a mental illness.

And mental illness is not an excuse to abuse someone emotionally, physically or sexually. You can create a helpful and healthy support group. If you or someone you know is being abused, there is no excuse. Please call the National Domestic Violence Hotline at 1-800-799-7233. You are worth more than they say.

If you or someone you know needs help, please visit the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline. You can also reach the Crisis Text Line by texting “START” to 741-741. Head here for a list of crisis centers around the world.

The Crisis Text Line is looking for volunteers! If you’re interesting in becoming a Crisis Counselor, you can learn more information here.

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