I tend to hurt to hurt people, or disappoint them. I push them away so they won't get hurt and hurt them in the process. Sometimes it warranted but usually not.

I have become one of those people that use the electric carts at grocery stores and other retails because of my weight. It hurts to walk, it hurts to stand. It hurts to go out.

I'm a fat blob of pain and I can't stand myself sometimes. I know I should exercise, no pain no gain, exercise will help with depression, it will help me lose weight, blah blah blah...

I'm so tired all the time, I just want to sleep... Please just let me sleep! I'm laying in bed crying as I post this because my life is a trembling mess and it's my fault.
My choices, my actions, my addictions, my life! My fault... I'm a fool. 😞