Nail-Patella Syndrome

I'm here because I have small breakdowns that really affect me and as my body deteriorates, they get worse. I'm a bit nervous for myself as my thoughts seem to always go to "I don't want to be here anymore." Interestingly enough, this website was suggested to me by an AI chat thing on Facebook. I have a rare disorder called Nail patella Syndrome. It affects my arms, knees, eyes, kidneys. I also have rheumatoid arthritis which is really bad at the moment and between the two, along with uncontrolled hyperthyroidism, that makes it hard to breath, I feel like I just want to be done.This most recent breakdown was due to being out of breath and putting away my groceries that caused a lot of pain and my thinking that I do not want to live the rest of my life like this. I am not strong anymore, mentally or physically. I feel like I'm losing it. I hate when people say "oh, stop having a pity party," because if they only knew how we are feeling physically and mentally, they could never imagine it. We are aloud to feel like crap sometimes and voice it. Anyway, I'm sorry, I just feel like some support could help me. Thanks for listening.