Really felt this today ..... #MentalHealth #Anxiety #Depression #Selfcare #CheckInWithMe #Insomnia
Soo today wasn't a great day either. I really had all these ideas that I wanted to get myself up and try and spend quality time with the kids and even just go to the park area across from our home ,but after good intentions and going to local shop really briefly it literally hit me ,I could hardly move with the pain in my back and legs even using the crutches,I felt ad though walking while feeling the catheter iwas like something pulling at my insides every step I took,I felt anxious ,I felt my self start to have a hot flush in panic, while trying to remind myself I was fine and I would be OK. I literally felt in a daze for the next few moments until we got back to the car and then back home where I had to go for a shower and then right back to bed because I was in agony , luckily enough they were still able to go out to the park and play and have some fun but I just felt like such a failure like my body is completely failing me and I'm failing ad a mum.I can't even do the simple things I used to do with them now without a struggle or pain getting in the way .I got myself so upset and I just had to remember that it's just a bad day & even though it seems there's a lot justnow it's not a bad life.My two kids are amazing and healthy and hopefully and I'm sure in ways they don't see me in the way I see myself.I have decided I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself right now because I cannot handle the fails.Im going to take it moment by moment and day by day and if I manage to do something I wanted and was happy about then I'll be proud of myself and if not then il try again tomorrow. I'll try anything right now to keep myself from being back in that dark heads pace which is absolutely no good for me or my family. ♥️It was a bad day for me but I have plenty to be thankful for and my kids got more time with me than they have past few days and I even managed it out of bed and to go out to shop with them so I'll be thankful i managed that 😊 ❤️
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