Confused, pt. 1
I don't understand what is happening to my mind at the moment. I used to listen to classical music and get so much out of it. I trained as a professional pianist. Now I don't want to touch it at all. When I do listen to it, I sense that I can still get as deeply immersed in it as before, but I find the experience unsettlingly empty and unfulfilling. It's as if music still has some power to move me, and I still have a capacity to engage deeply with it, but it's lost any deeper meaning. I can only describe my current experience of listening to music as having a sort of superficial depth/deep superficiality?!... I guess given recent circumstances mindful change can only be good, but I really don't get it! 🫤 #Depression #narcissisticabusesyndrome #PTSD #PTSDSupportAndRecovery