Healing
We don't talk about this often but starting over and healing can hurt. Learning to reparent and forgive yourself comes with many rewards, but it can come with what seems like the cost of pain.
The pain is temporary, but it's hard not to get lost in it especially when it gets unbearable.
Healing sometimes require pinpointing where the pain started. It's not to wish what you could have done differently, but it's to thank the past for teaching hard lessons and acknowledging that you are human. And as humans, we are flawed.
I never fully closed any of my chapters which is probably why I continued to have repeated behaviors, patterns, and even experiences. Life will continue to bring you the same lessons until you've finally had enough. And, boy.. I've had enough.
At 33 soon to be 34, I am finding that everything is finally catching up to me. I can't keep running away forever. At some point, we have to stop & realize that we hold the key to free ourselves from prison.
I hope whoever is reading this understands that there is light at the end of the tunnel. I'm finding that no matter how dark and frightening it gets, you have to just keep on walking with the trust and belief that the light will find you.
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