I've tried so many ways to make so many people happy when all i need to do was make myself happy. I'm done trying, i'm done being the good girl people want me to be. I'm ready to end this mess of myself. I've tried asking for help in my case but no one seems to have all of the answers so i'm quieting this life of mine and starting a new one in heaven with my grandmother who cared for me, helped me, saved me from the abuse. I don't know if there is anyone out there who care but i'm done!